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October
30 2004 Happy Halloween
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I
stood home and I slept....I dont feel good....lungs are
beating
me up. nasty cough, hak hak hak...cant breath. Today is
Halloween and yet again I am sick during great events.
Why william
why? what ever, its probly a blessing in disguse. Good
bye October 2004, until we meet again...ps: my new cell
phone sucks, and so does the serxxxxxe.
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7:00pm
working on Halloween eve.... |
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I
worked... |
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go
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October
29 2004 |
William
is now with Cell |

 
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Standard
Features |
Display
- Full-Color Internal and External Displays |
Integrated
2.mPX camera with 65k color TFT display, 4x zoom,
and brightness control |
Multimedia
Messaging Serxxxxxe (MMS) capable |
Mobile
Instant Messaging using AOLĘ Instant Messenger |
Camera
includes color effects, image size adjustment,
and multi-shot capability |
Downloadable
ringtones, including Polyphonic and Super Tones |
Downloadable
ringtones, graphics, and games |
Customizable
wallpapers and color schemes |
FastForward
Capable |
Phone
Book Capacity - 255 alphanumeric phone book entries |
Photo
Caller ID |
Voice
Activated Dailing |
Personal
Organizer: - Calendar, calculator, alarm clock,
and voice recorder |
Wireless
Internet Express Capable |
Battery
Type - Li-Ion |
Talk
Time - Up to 580 Minutes |
StandBy
Time - Up to 416 Hours |
Weight
- 2.35 Ounces |
Technology
- Operates on 850/1900 MHz GSM/GPRS networks mac
osx sever 10.3 or above |
Text
Messaging Capable |
Dimensions
- 3.5 x 1.9 x 1.0 inches |
8-Way
Navigation Key |
Data
Connect capable |
Macintosh Ready |
Free
phone sex all weekend |
Pool team is now going to get more of me |
Higher phone bill |
Ignore people with no excuse now |
More shit to carry |
Douglas
asking to borrow my phone to call George |
I
can be reached at 1 212 247 2460 |
Call
me |
Any
time day or night |
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to November 2004
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October
13 2004 Wed-about last night
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Team
Stick it in plays at Raven
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I dont want to play |
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I
dont want to play with the Giant Cue ball |
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I
Lost my Match...weeeeeeeeee |
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Michelle waits to play |
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Michelle plays |
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Michelle
wins her Match...weeeeeeee |
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Julie
And William dont feel it today
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Michelle
Rocks every day
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I
took it as a sign.
I was making a mistake…again. I repeat, there for
I am. This morning I had another sign. Howard stern of
all
people. He made it very clear. Its all about you William.
My memories are not what it used to be. Denial is something
I have been writing about all year. Acceptance is the key
to opening the doors of your denial. If I just accept the
way things are in my life with out judgment then I wont be
angry or sad or wild. I am not paying attention to the things
that need my attention. This is my Zen to pay attention to
the things that are important. Not for petty desire. I feel
so much better.
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Wishes come true but not in the way you think. Today I made
a wish from a wish flower against the fall wind. I hurt myself
this past Monday. Having wishes that just hurt people in
the long run. I am angry about things I can’t accept.
I need to accept the truth to Aleve this headache I keep
causing my self for selfish needs.
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I think I am an internet diary exhibitionist. Or maybe I
am just calling attention to myself. Some people like attention
no matter the cost, my last bit of attention was 25 cents.
The Raven game
I called Ron and told him I didn’t want to play today.
I feel a little ill with this nasty cough and I played yesterday
and beat an APA level six player. So what does Ron do? He
plays me first he leaves and then I lose. I played like I
was having sex without a hard on, all the motion with no
stick or desire. Julie did not want to play ether, she played
Sunday and Monday so she was pooled out on Tuesday. Ronnie
had to play the last match. So Puru called him to come back
to raven and play the last match. Ron snaps at me during
his match about me loosing to fish. He was being hard headed
about me not wanting to play, Michelle was listening to his
bitch and moan about my game to me and Michelle steps the
convo and told him to back the fuck off on William. There
was nasty dialog going on between the two and then it stopped
when it got a little heated.
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William “ I have been playing all season Ron I don’t
feel like it today”
Ron “ why did you lose to fish William!?!”
Michelle “ Hey Ron William said he don’t feel
like shooting what the fuck is your problem”
Ron” Am I talking to you?”
Michelle “ Am I part of this team?”
Ron “He’s not suppose to lose”
Michelle “ He don’t want to play”
William “ its all right guys , go ahead Ron take your
shot”
We got two games at least, were still way in first place
anyway our season so far has been 4-3-3 5-5-2.
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Michelle,
Julie And William are Goth without the corny Balck
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October
26 2004 About last night
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whatever....
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Yesterday
was a little more difficult than I expected but we won
3 too 2 Rumblefish
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October
25 2004 Monday At the Desk
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2.8mb
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10/25/04
Back to the basics
No matter were you stand, who you stand with, or even if
make a new place to stand, there you are. Ya-cant-escape
your personality or your character; which grows with were
you go and what you do with your life. Who you are is not
a place; it’s who you are. Forcing yourself to be
something your not is like some kind of concealed torture
underneath the skin of your character. If you can’t
be who you are then what’s the point of being? I
was like this once, until I learned to not be so judgmental.
Lately I have been very judgmental, I am now slowing down.
When I am angry I tend to project it else were other than
were it needs to be. Sometimes I don’t know were
that need to be is, so I just spew it every were and on
every one. I am having trouble at home and my recreation
life is 50/50. My place of work is ok but it can be better.
My Monday pool team is almost in dead last place and my
Tuesday team is in first place. This is bugging me. Were
I am living doesn’t feel like home. I am there and
feeling sick about it. I have been looking for a new place
to live and I think I found one.
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Sunday
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24
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2004
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At Home,
on the web.
Congrats Ga Young Kim for
winning the 2004 WPBA US Open 9-Ball Championship - Sandia
Casino - Albuquerque, NM - October 20-24, 2004 Tournament.
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Ga Young Kim
22 years old and she beat
Alison Fisher in the Final; Wow; wish she was on my
team.
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October
23 2004 THE BREAK... |
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Another
day another 50cents
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October
23 2004 just work |
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About
last night
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October
15 2004 Today
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The
Tuesday Team Trophy has been put back....Hmmmmm?
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October
15 2004 about yesterday night
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The
Tuesday Team Trophy plack is missing from
the E-bar wall. That trophy is for the year my Tuesday
team went to play at Tar Bar for the Triannual’s.
With My team Rumble fish
on the next table. Team “Stick it in” lost
that one; Ronnie lost his match to Heather. That was
back in 2003
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Any way, yesterday after a little shooting at BBC I went to the
Ebar for a game of Killer. Before we began, I and got on the table
and played with Eric who was there already for a little practice.
As the evening went on with beer, drinks and pool table, we got
into a discussion about Zen and why my game have been roller coasting
the last couple of seasons. We got into things about filtering
your emotions and the Fire and Ice of it and blab blab blab. To
make a long story short, I was pointing out the Wins my teams have
had in the last 15 months and that’s when I noticed one of
my plack’s missing. Now before I go further, the first season
I was asked to join Team “Stick it in,” we won and
got into the Triannulas, which means we get a Plack-Trophy. We
got the Plack Trophy one season later but we got it, along with
Rumble fishes. When Team “Stick it ins” Trophy was
hung up on the E Bar wall, In a Dark way upper right hand corner
of a wall were no one could see it anyway. There is different one
in its place now; and old one. Now when I asked Ronnie, later that
evening “were is our Trophy?”
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Ronnie” What Trophy?”
William“ our Trophy (you Jack ass- I think to my self)”
Ronnie “Were getting it now, we won”
William “ no, not that one, the one form the last Triannulas”
Ronnie” there five on the wall”
William “So what does that mean? I’m gona make pretend
one of em is mine? What did you do with the plack Ronnie?”
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When he said that ” there five on the wall” saying
that along with his body language I know he know he knows what
happened to it. So he’s being evasive with acting stupid
and not looking me in the eye.
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William” Ronnie, its not there”
Ronnie” you mean somebody stole it”
William “nobody stole it and replaced it with a older one,
some one is trying to hide it”
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At this point I was so angry. My name was taken off the wall, my
efforts are being suppressed and not recorded along with the efforts
of my team mates. That was pissing me the fuck off. Three time
we got to the winners spot and three times I did not play; one
Triannual one play off and another Triannual. That’s already
bad but I always took comfort in the fact that at least I was part
of team and my name was there. As small as that was, now that is
taken away as well. Over what I suspect is pettiness.
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go
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October
21 2004 About last night...BBQ |
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The
Big Pumkins
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We
Strait Pooled, that got on my nerve, then we played with
two big Pumkins then..
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October
13 2004 Wed-about last night
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Team
Stick it in gets a 5 zip win... Again
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Team
Stick it in | 4.4mb mpeg
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Angelic
Rachel
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I
won my Match...weeeeeeeeee
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go
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October
19
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Click
or Dble Click to see the" I fell down " - 1.7mb
movie 
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October
18 2004 Monday...its just not happening yet....
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5
zip !!!!???!!! Whats going on with Rumblefish???
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Sunday
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We
lost our Triannuals, Douglas and Serafina was there for
support and George won for his team. And Ronnie? He didnt
play me....again.
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October
16 2004 |
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It
was quiet before the strom kind of day....a Triannula
storm...I practiced with Perkash for hours at BBC then
we ate Sushi...a lot of it. Got a little drunk, then
I went to work for a little while, There was a Birthday
party at Rons new place, I didnt stay for long, my nind
was heavy with thoughts. Mostly about Home Work and xxxxx....
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