FIRST 'EVER' BAR TRIATHLON AT

AMSTERDAM BILLIARDS CLUB

RESULTS: 16 teams competed (we were "sold out with a waiting list). 1st Place: "Still Mets Fans" ($250 prize); 2nd: Team R&R;" 3rd: "Foos Fighters." One team actually came from Chicago to compete - we're not kidding! Thx to all competitors - and for eveyrone else, THIS MIGHT HAVE BEEN THE MOST FUN EVENT WE'VE EVER HOSTED! Our SECOND EVER BAR TRIATHLON will be held in 6 weeks - STAY TUNED!

I don't know what ta-say, ya-know. There are times in life when the only thing you can do now is just deal with the consequences, if indeed there are.

Nature has a way of dealing with a virus of the earth. It has before and I suspect it will again.

Maybe this is what the Mayan's were warning before they disappeared, at least that is what I read. Then again I don't believe everything I read.

Media blackout, yup, dat's what's happening now. In the beginning they said, and I quote "if there is a meltdown we are going to be in serious trouble in more ways than just a radiation cloud spreading from Cali to Turkey" ~CNN. And, so, well, it happened, now, everything is going to be fine according to Obama and the Daily News? Liar's. It's fucked, we are fucked, everybody is going to be if-not-already fucked sooner or later. Monster island is no longer a fairy tale. Mobilization of an entire state, island and pieces of a country is impossible to relocate. Six months to a year from now is it going to be the milk that does it or the tuna? I'll change it up a bit. I'm not eating today. I've been up for two days. Some people need to be reminded about what they have. Today Is a big moon. Today are the tides of radiation. Today I started from yesterday and 2mrw will be the same. I love everybody.

A woman who has been coming into my lab for about 5/6 years, still, does not know how to open a browser window on a computer. She walks into my lab sits down and then stands up (hops) from computer station to computer station until she find one that has what she needs already opened from the previous user.

Some who have earned a Masters-PHD-Doctoral-Degree for whatever the fuckhole from 32 years ago would not have much respect for technology I suppose, and probably will not make much of an effort to learn it when dummies like me are around to help, right? Even after years of me showing her how to open a simple application window, why remember 'how to' when dummy is always here, right? She just comes into my lab and starts clicking apps on random computers until one of the computers opens a window she needs, her behavior is somewhat vandalizing of the machines.

Today, I watched her for the millionth time do her computer vandal jackrabbit hoppity hop shit. She finally finds a computer thats suits her needs. Her back is turned to me as she mumbles out loudly "oh, this one is not broken". I walked over to the computer next to her, checked it and then asked her (in a slow dreary tone) as I was checking it (the computer), "something wrong with the computers you where just on; again?" She replies" those computers are broken they didn't do what I wanted them to do. So I finished checking the computers, and they were all fine.

As I head back to my desk/station. I mumble out loudly from across the lab (in the same way she mumbled to me earlier) "The computers work fine, it was the user lack of know how that was broken", we both laughed, but it was a kind of sarcastic why don't you fuck off kind of laugh.

People are liers. All this time and she is still not getting it. I have failed. I am grateful. I can't really judge anyone, I mean what's worse? I'm to blame. I could just simply not be here. There are some who are worth the effort and there are others who are just not going to be there when you need-em. Ed and Yomylin are awesome. I've been eating slower these days. I am chewing my food. I felt sorry for him then me then them. I am healthy and will stay that way as along as I stay away from japan. He said "your mother is a five". When she told me about that I wasn't surprised but new at that moment sooner or later that shit is going to hit the fan and I'll be there to take a picture, or did I already? You can't predict nature. People are like weather patterns, cloudy with a chance of stupid or overcast with a chance of hope. I'm not perfect but I know where my imperfections come from, came from, went to and so on. I don't put people on pedestals or hold a grudge but I also never forget either.

"Avoid hangovers: stay drunk"

"I've got a problem for your solution"

I took a week off, just to sleep in, ya-know, get that healing sleep.

"In the spider-web of facts, many a truth is strangled" ~Paul Eldridge

But, I found myself working harder in the last three days then I did in the last five days of work before I took the week off, I'm gonna stop now.

"There are some things you learn best in calm, and some in storm" ~Willa Cather

I have a new desire, thank goodness, I thought my blood went cold. I don't worry about missing the old anymore, it's more evolved, I'm talk'n about the worry part, and what would be missing; if there is anything to miss.

"It is only when we forget all our learning that we begin to know" ~Henry David Thoreau

I feel fortunate, but also kinda alone, not lonely though, but far away...