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July 30th, 2009. Fiday Morning |
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Fish Intestine's and eyes-balls; oh please-whatev.. I've eaten Haggis, so there aint-nuttin on the menu that's gonna impress me as exotic, but ma-peeps on the other hand, talk about sexy exotic... |
Gail and the 3ball... |
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July 28th, 2009. Tuesday Morning |
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"An artist's duty is rather to stay open-minded and in a state where he can receive information and inspiration.
You always have to be ready for that little artistic Epiphany"
~Nick Cave
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July 26th, 2009. Sun Morning |
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Gina Rubs the buddhy for good luck... |
Happy
Cherry
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NALDO
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Borana wins
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"The long run useally will have the true meaning anyway"
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July 25th, 2009. Sat Morning |
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I'm really trying not to care. I don't want to be bitter in not caring. I do not want to be with a vacant or back turning attitude ether. I really... am not... going to change over night as I write this... Caring or Judging, is there a difference?
I think all I can do is just watch or don't watch. I can go with it, or I can do something about it. I can be me and just do what I would do naturally.
I have discovered something about myself recently and I do not like it at all. But, times are different, people attitudes are different, I think... And if I cannot change it, is it really so bad?
I have lots of friends and I have lots of choices and I really cannot judge anyone with out asking myself first "Have I done this before as well, and if I did am I a hypocrite for having a double standard attitude". Or am I just plane selfish?
Am I going to deep with this? How deep can you go into a shallow lake? |
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"Last night I stayed up late playing poker with Tarot cards. I got a full house and four people died"
~Steven Wright |
I gave myself a reading early this morning. (sat) I Sat straight up from dream land even still with my eyes closed, leaned over, grabbed my cards from the night table half asleep and a bit hungover from last night..
I Like to read in the morning right before fully waking up, you are most honest then, its hard to be in denile of what you are really feeling or whats heaviest on your mind along with the secrets you know as you are waking up. It is kinda of like talking to someone in there sleep, A person is not going to lie no matter what you ask them in there sleep, I'd know, my ex girl freind used to do it to me all the time...
5 card spread.. relationships...
"Am I this way because things are not going my way or am I that way because of how the way things are going?" |
I asked questions and I got answers, and I was just more confused afterwards.. It is now early in the afternoon and I forgot what were the questions.. But the answers are still there..
I know more or less what they are, kind of, but I cannot remember exactly what were the question's..
But I did not ask a question for the fifth card I placed down, I really didn't have a verbal question, but only the burning inside me.. And I really do not know what it is that is burning..
Mid afternoon I ask a direct yes or no question and the answer was "no" but the meaning of the card gave and insinuation of yes, it is possible it could have happened.
My stomach was turning, I felt sick, I know this feeling is steming way back into my childhood, my inner child, my inner self, I was so sick, hopefully from the booze and not cause I was judging, cause I cared, about who though?
"I don't really believe in palm readers and crystal balls and tarot cards, but I respond to the need for them" ~Stephan Jenkins
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"Am I the type to go and get it or am I the type to go and be get?"
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July 24th, 2009. Friday Morning |
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Sushi is good food... For the brain, for the heart, for the love of eating soulless creatures of the sea...
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July 23rd, 2009. Thursday Morning |
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it’s easy you know, if you just listen very carefully, and hear what is really being said, especially if it’s repeated over and again with a different verse.
What’s being said is not quit as interesting as why it’s being said and even more so how many times its being said.
After awhile, you start to feed the words, feed it with attention, you give it strength by listening to it but not really hearing it, or is it vise versa?
Got the cue tips....
I guess that all depends on who speaking and who is listening.
For years I have been hearing you but not listening, then I start listening but I cant hear you. Before I new it, my hearing and listening was a mish mash of blurbs and emotional attention; frustrating this was.
I was getting slightly emotional about how and what I was listening to. I couldn’t make it out, the words, the amount of words, he and she a-mountain-of-words, and in what order they were saying them. But then, I noticed the amount of words; I let pile up in my head, bulid up in my ear; like earwax.
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Before I new it, it didn’t even matter what was being said, all that matter'd was the amount that was being said. Got the cue tips and I cleaned out the wax.
"Voice only has influence if it is heard"
A voice has but so much power and influence until you take away that power and influence by simply not listening. The voice sometimes gets louder when you dont listen. I don’t mean ignore ether. I mean really hear what the melody is of the words, behind the cords, vocal, emotional cords.
Nobody writes with out feeling, thats for sure...
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It’s nice to be heard, it is nice to get attention. Attention, though is attention, good or bad. Or is the bad good?
Bad attention is good attention, I think? Can you disguise your attention? Can you say one thing and mean another?
"The strength of words come from the ones who listen but don't hear"
Can an insult, direct-and-targeted be a compliment in disguise? I think that all depends on how you want to hear it. Or how its sounds.
What is the tune, or tone like? Classical or rap? Rock or pop? The good word or preaching? Complaining or admiring? Wishing on a star or crying from a far?
"Attention only gets if you give"
Talk is talk, the quality of it and its effect all depends on whos listening how many have-or-just here’d it and what everybody can do with it or stick it in...
No matter were I turn, there they are is all up to me, whatever or whoever "they are" is or are. Is in the are to the izzall and the snizzall and the hizall my nizzal to the snizzall and the rizzall to the kizzall...
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July 22nd, 2009. Wed Morning |
Bday Trev and Aaron last weekend...
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“Maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had, and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated”
“The old believe everything; the middle aged suspect everything: the young know everything” ~Oscar Wilde
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July 21th, 2009. Tuesday Morning |
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Today it is raining, what a beautiful clear day
"People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel" B.J.W
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It’s kind of a shock to the system when you catch u’r-self in the nick of time, free falling with out even knowing it. Landing in the same spot like some pro skydiver.
Did I catch myself in the nick of time? My conscious self caught a glimps of my subconscious or unconscious, I dont know-I'm-not a fuck’n shrink so whatever. last night It was numbing, not like booze numb or cant feel my legs numb. But kind of like a lethargy in the center of my understanding; a swirl of aphathy and empathy....
I sat still, frozen, my expectations got spun around again, I had plenty of air in my lungs but I was not breathing, my infatuation got blown away, I was almost in a panic at first but very grateful I jumped.
It was a beautiful clear day and the recall made it all go away or left behind in the sky. I love myself again. Yes, I do vacate from time to time. It’s healthy to go deep once in awhile, dive to the bottom touch the ground and come back up for air all the way up into the clouds.
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July 19th, 2009. Sunday Morning |
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"I think we are afraid of each other when it comes to sex, because we read so much about sex, we talk so openly about sex, we see movies and we read books; but when we are face to face with someone else, we forget our individual patterns; that we are unique. So we try to repeat other people’s patterns, according to what we seen and what we heard. So most of us are very frustrated, because we don’t accept our individuality as far as sex is concerned' ~Paulo Coelho
"I love the feeling that you get when you can really laugh with a man and be natural and not always think that there's a sexual element going on. For me, flirting with a man means making fun of myself and trying to open myself and be very unpretentious" ~Cameron Diaz
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"How do you know when you're finished making love?"
~Jackson Pollock
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July 17th, 2009. Friday Morning |
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"The score never interested me, only the game"
~ Mae West
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"If a thing is worth doing, it is worth doing slowly ... very slowly" ~Gypsy Rose Lee
"The beauty seen is partly in him who sees it" ~ whoknows
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"How much has to be explored and discarded before reaching the naked flesh of feeling" ~ Claud Debussy
"I'm no angel, but I've spread my wings a bit" ~ Mae West
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"Is not a kiss the very autograph of love?" ~Henry Finck
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July 16th, 2009. Thursday Morning |
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It’s very subtle to some and commonly a standard to others. It’s kind of like that half way thing. Maybe tit for tat, maybe scratch for scratch. I Know people get their fill of me from time to time, to bad there schedule doesn’t match mine. I always do this and it is only recently.
I wish I new this way back when, at least I know now. Some people never learn, or learn only after the fact. Were all the same, I’m no better than anyone else, but for sure no one is better than you. It was like a chase, kind of fun, kind of sad, kind of enlightening; whatever that means these days. I push the envelope and take the inchoatives’.
I don’t expect much, except, an honest relationship with any or all my friends, family and others. Yes the others, oh my others, OMG, what I have done I’m doing it again, I like doing it though, but too much of it becomes more than I can drink in, unless, I drink it slow, slow and for hours and hours on end.
Slow like honey and heavy with mood. I’m not rude, but arbitrarily and crude, it works better that way. It’s Hot that way, raw, and filled with fire. Seldom one will burn musing from the others. Yes those others with a motive for moving emotions waves. I like the waves on a hot and sultry summer night, salty on the inside and sweet on the outside. A cute Sushi BBQue.
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I've been eating Sushi for days... Yummy
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July 15th, 2009. Wed Morning |
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" I blog, so I can yell from atop of a mountain from my chair at home; let all the animals hear"
“The Internet destroyed most of the barriers to publication. The cost of being a publisher dropped to almost zero with two interesting immediate results: anybody can publish, and more importantly, you can publish whatever you want.” ~Dick Costolo |
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July 14th, 2009. Tuesday Morning |
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~ Your blog is your unedited version of yourself. ~lore
What is a blog? Who is it for and why? A draft from A to Z Maybe, for some, a visual accretion to share and show off? Maybe to disperse baking secrets. Maybe for communicating, and commentary, complaining, divulging or exposing? Making friends? Maybe for giving or getting? Hiding who you are with someone whom you are not, or, showing that you are with somebody who is hot. Being intimate with friends or loved ones in far away places. Tell jokes, Kill time? Live-love-laugh with others who are blogging as well. Meeting people. Make stuff. Broadcasting Online Origami ideas? Preaching? Quarreling. Reading. Sharing secrets of love or just plane shopping or to sell your pool cue. Tarot card readings. Unraveling mysteries. Venting. Wishing. Maybe you want to show some XXX stuff to your grandma? Yell at the world or yell about yourself? Or just simply want some Zest, zeal, zip or zoom in your life.
"Blogging is an art, same as any other method of self-expression. Some are better at it than others" ~ hugh macleod
It’s really a superfluous question now a days, “why do you have a blog?” Well, just about 90% of planet earth has a social network account with at least one community company or another already these days; Facebook, MySpace, Twitter and so on. So why don’t you ask some of them why do they have a blog? I mean with over ten million blogs online how can I be nuts? |
Back then it wasn’t called blogging.
When I first started blogging, at least with what I can remember right now, the reason? Too find a convenient way to speak and contact all my friends-all at the same time; like a teacher with a bull horn in a schoolyard ‘okay you kids time for everybody to get back on-line’.
It was getting annoyingly redundant, repeating the same statements over and over on the phone when I was asked questions about music and the venues in my public relation years at Atlantic. On occasion though, the internet was kind of new me, and exciting, it was an opportunity for me to show off my art work and to commentary some of the music after the shows, or, I just simply felt like saying something about matters concerning others, there music, there art work or just show off, name drop or mention who I know, who didn’t know but wished I did or just write about myself and get the vent out.
Then I decided to share a little more of who I am, mostly for those who randomly found my artwork on the Internet and who would like to attach a face to the words and drawings I was publishing, also along with the shows I was advertising.
There were sites back in 1996/97, I was going to on a regular basis, too attain information for places and people I needed or wanted to meet-greet-hang-with and so on.
"Breathe. Know that the Internet has no eraser” ~Liz Strauss
I found the Internet amazing back then. I felt, the innovation of this World Wide Web thing was going to be the number one way of getting in contact and staying connected, with those whom you wish to stay in contact with years from now. Of course, there are also those who don’t wish to be contacted as well, and that’s were the Internet can be dangerous; ya-know, people finding you whom you don’t wish to be found by.
To recall or not recall
Communication is probably the bottom line of blogging for most, to be heard, by almost anyone, most times, procures the forlorn the grows in you on the lonely days, after work with no were to go, no one to be with, no place to be.
Lately it seems, the simpler I make a statement, verbal or visual on any of my social networks, including my personal page, the more it seems the readers thinks I’m being vague, obscure and judgmental.
Perhaps, lethargic behavior will make more of a social ornament during congregation and social gathering. It’s a bit shallow, I know, but at least safe. Still, it can also be viewed as a Zen character quality witch I am always for. Let others be whom they may, despite what they say about you. Cause in the long run…. Are you really gonna give a shit about what anybody says about you?
"The first thing you need to decide when you build your blog is what you want to accomplish with it, and what it can do if successful" ~Ron Dawson
And yes if you are wondering...that is Jewl... and yes to your next wondering as well... |
"I feel the capacity to care is the thing which gives life its deepest significance”
~Pablo Casals
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July 13th, 2009. Monday Morning |
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Insinuation.
This is something that has been a nudge for sometime now. Assuming already this is what you say I am, (what you are insinuating about me) then, of course, immediate action should be taken (if indeed I am what you are insinuating). I can only imagine, the thought that follows. --
-- Oh but wait, was I wrong? Am I mistaken? Did I in fact make a mistake about this? I can only hope… there is always hope…
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We are a reflection of how we perceive others, of how we perceive the world around us, truly indeed we make people out to be what we want them to be.
This has been an uncertainty I have read, written and quoted time and time again and pondered for many years now.
I have grown slightly apathetic with this, adult juvenile behavior, inflicted and repeated like an over played melody, like a corrupted mp3 in some wanna-b iPod.
Mostly though I just ignore it, it usually goes away like everything else other than a tumor. But there is a price that comes with apathy, and I am learning this, feeling this, and getting scared.
One cannot be fulfilled when they can see all the way to the horizon on a cloudy day. All I wanna-do is just play...
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“Individually, we are one drop. Together, we are an ocean” ~Ryunosuke Satoro
“The people and circumstances around me do not make me what I am, they reveal who I am”
~Laura Schlessinger
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“The public have an insatiable curiosity to know everything, except what is worth knowing” ~Oscar Wilde
"There are two types of people - those who come into a room and say, "Well, here I am!" and those who come in and say, "Ah, there you are” ~Frederick L. Collins
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"Truly indeed we make people out to be what we want them to be"
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July 10th, 2009. Friday Mor. |
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“The man who has no problems is out of the game” ~ Elbert Hubbard
Ed is SOOoo happeEeeeeEe...
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“Middle age is when a guy keeps turning off lights for economical rather than romantic reasons” ~ Lillian Carter |
“An optimist is a person who sees only the lights in the picture, whereas a pessimist sees only the shadows. An idealist, however, is one who sees the light and the shadows, but in addition sees something else: the possibility of changing the picture, of making the lights prevail over the shadows” ~ who knows |
"There are two kinds of light - the glow that illumines, and the glare that obscures" ~James Thurber
"I do my thing, and you do your thing. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful" ~Frederick E. Perl
"You can't have a light without a dark to stick it in" ~Arlo Guthrie
"I don't know who invented high heels, but all women owe 'him' a lot" ~Marilyn Monroe |
Be much prettier if we were high... SsoOoOoo-higGgGHhh |
"the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a common-place thing, but burn-burn-burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars, and, in the middle, you see the blue center-light pop and everybody goes "Awww!"" ~Jack Kerouac
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"Coaching is a profession of love. You can't coach people unless you love them" ~Eddie Robinson
"A coach is someone who can give correction without causing resentment" ~John Wooden
"You can motivate by fear, and you can motivate by reward. But both those methods are only temporary. The only lasting thing is self motivation" ~Homer Rice |
"If you deliberately plan on being less than you are capable of being, then I warn you that you'll be unhappy for the rest of your life" ~ Abraham Maslow |
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I think, separation brings closeness. I read that somewhere; something like that. But it’s the companionship I miss sometimes and not so much the person all the time; I wrote that somewhere a while ago. We all say things that sometimes we regret later on, not so much what we said but more ‘the-why we said it’, along with the what we would like to believe ‘were necessary results at the time. I’ve it done before, I’ve lost my cool and said things I wish I could take back but glad I said it anyway, is that moronic?
"What deep wounds ever closed without a scar?" ~George Gordon, Lord Byron
"Sometimes, I wish I can be like you, with all the clues and all the news and never show that I have the blues" ~ W.F
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I’ve played it cool as well. Leaving the other party with there own words to ordain the results, knowing, that later on those words will make-em look silly in the long run; I’ve looked silly as well. Those words coming back to haunt me, being reminded at moment's certain words I’ve used before as a sword would make anyone look like a bad guy; feel like heel. An apathetic attitude doesn’t make it okay nor does it mean your just none judgmental, it is just simply a way of swiming with each other.
"Believe those who are seeking the truth. Doubt those who find it" ~Andre Gide
"I am an opened mined person and sometimes when I am on to something I get off of it" ~ W.F
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July 2nd, 2009. Thursday. |
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"Millions saw the apple fall, but Newton asked why" ~Bernard Baruch
"Did I do something wrong?"
Now, I’ve always kept in mind, ‘that a question, almost-any question, is not quit as rousing as what is the question insinuating? The motivation to ask or its intention, like most questions asked. The reason why for asking questions have more information of telling a tale than the actual question.
Is it a low esteem issue, if one were to ask the question "Did I do something wrong?" Would it be an insult, to the one being asked the question "Did I do something wrong?” unless you are speaking to a dope to only then think to yourself before you ask “what smartass thing that I say or do to not accommodate your sense of well being”? Or is it a completely innocent question without significance? Still, If anything has significance it is becuse you put it there....
Some of us, like myself, slightly distort our perception of reality to better deal with our actual reality, and that’s okay to do, we all do it. If we didn't then trying to be sane in an insane world would make ya-nuts.
My intention for helping others do not come with a price, I do it cause ether I'm asked or I see a friend in need. My little two or three senses are not without consideration for consequence no matter how mundane that consequence is or my consideration. Cause really, six months from now, who gonna-give-a-shit? Especially of you’re gaining and not losing.
"There are no foolish questions, and no man becomes a fool until he has stopped asking questions" ~Charles Proteus Steinmetz |
Here are some questions I was asked recently.
1. If you didn’t have blog William would people like you?
2. Hey William I’m really bored at my job can you come over and visit me?
3. Do you ever plan on having any children?
4. When are you getting a new camera?
5. Would you accompany me to a dinner I don’t want to be a fifth wheel?
6. Why are drinking wine don’t you normally drink whisky?
7. Did she call you back?
8. Im at BBQ shouldnt you be here too?
9. Would you like to dress up like Garfunkel of Simon & Garfunkel before we have sex? I call this Garfunkeling, its the only way your going to turn me on...
Very easily I can slide it all off with productivity, pleasant company a recreational vice, drinky-winky ;) or a combo of of the three. Still, I think recently this is part of the slight distortion in my perception of my day-to-day's in dealing with reality.
I can see it in so many different ways (the question's) and construe all questions as an insult or compliment or some new color on my palette to paint with. When I hear words like ‘I and ‘me and ‘them, I will exercise caution with my reply. And for sure I am considerate, without-judgment, to whom I am speaking too and what is the reason for it.
Lately I have been a little lose with my mouth or just being honest, being blunt and not beating around the burning bush with a fluffy blanket. It’s moving and it’s exciting and it’s kind of dangerous. |
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Wine'ng-Talk...
"You do not need to be loved, not at the cost of yourself. The single relationship that is truly central and crucial in a life is the relationship to the self. Of all the people you will know in a lifetime, you are the only one you will never lose" - Jo Courdert
"You can explore the universe looking for somebody who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and you will not find that person anywhere" - Unknown
"Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves" - Carl Jung
"I must learn to love the fool in me the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries." - Theodore Isaac Rubin
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