December
31 2004 Happy Birthday Douglas!!!!!
About last
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Some
thing's I did these last few days before the year ending.
I have a lot to say but I
will say later. But it’s been a real transiending.
So right now I will leave it on this. Love and Hate: I
learned, a desperate mind with no more ideas on how to
handle any situation will resort to the most primitive
emotions and actions. And that is as I wrote before, Love,
Hate. These last three months have been raw with me, how’s
that for paint on a Zen pallet? Happy new year….
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Captain
Victoria Viscusi (Tuesday's) And Captain William Fuentes
(Monday's) Play then eat
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December
30 2004
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 It’s funny yesterday morning I felt something was
coming in, something closing in, some drawing near, I could
not tell what it was. It was in my stomach it was in my
head I woke up with it from my bed. It started Tuesday
night and carried through Wednesday morning and all day
yesterday. I already had thrown in the towel with my team
and with the way my life had been spent this whole year.
I had no idea what was next so In the evening I got shit
faced at the bar and spoke to somebody there who gave me
a little enlightenment about my character and it’s
substance. To make a this long day story short. I went
home and fell asleep. Then about 5:30 am this morning I
get jarred out of my sleep from a ring ring sound coming
from my cell phone right over my head on my bed. Julie
Text messages me.
RUMBLEFISH IS IN THE PLAYOFFS!!!!!!
We got the wild card in the Drawing….wow....Girlfreind
Julie also gave me some stratagic tips in the text
message on who to play and how to do
it
for the win...Did I menetion I love Julie...
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December
29 2004 11:00am
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Shhhh...
ya hear that....it's drawing near.....get ready |
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The
nothing
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finally was able to catch up some of last weeks events |
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December
27 2004 About sunday night....
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I
got a headache now.... So I shaved...Still have
a headache. It's about three in the morning. Why
do I have a headache? I
got gossip about the APA in Arizona
from
Brian who
now lives there...Did you know that they have guy
level two's in the APA bar leauge in Arizona!!! Imagine
that,
a Guy rated a level two!!! So the level APA rating
can vary from state to state. Hmmmm. I see issues
here. Good and bad.
http://tucsonapa.com/
Click "rosters" then select a division
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Dont
worry ladies ...three days, it will grow back, I just needed
to cut something with an intense result...
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This
morning
I
have heard this since I was a child. Read
it in comic books and gum rappers. Being quoted
in movies and plays.
Said to me by Teachers, Professors, Parents, friends,
and family and so on in my life. This has been
said to me time
and time again but I have never truly experienced it
like I have this morning lying on my back with
a swollen heart
and an aching spinal cord on this cold winter day. “Never
judge a book by its cover.” Maybe I will add
a little something to these words of wisdom. “Never
judge a book by its cover or its Author.”
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Image taken on
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Today
was the last day and I didnt even decide it would be...
It kinda just happened unexpected... |
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December
26 2004 snowing today
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Sorry
about the delay in updates, Ive been very
tanked with booze these last holiday-days.
But I will update very shortly with lots
of pics and little tit-bites of drama,
romance, and danger, along with of course
some happy times. Merry Christmas and a
happy rest of the year... |
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Merry
Christmas..
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December
24 2004 about a few days ago
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Sometime
a few weeks ago
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 So
last night I almost did a drunk dial... but if it
wasn’t for John
and his atomic wings (Chicken.) I would have called
this chick and said all kind of thing under the influence;
he filled my belly full of sanity. So I didn’t
make the call. But thanks to technology I text messaged
instead. Oh well, maybe I should had more wings. I
got a little plastered last night Met Viscusi at Satellite,
wanted to see Tim’s new pool table. Al’s
team from Bar 81 will be playing out of there soon.
6:45am this morning. I get a fuck you, you bitch on
my Cell phone… Then
later I turned into a Dentist and started to pull teeth
just to get a Fucken Merry Christmas. Then I started
calling bluffs. Jezz, the things an orphaned man has
to do just to get some attention form his little darling. |
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RumbleFish
Victoria Viscusi And William Fuentes
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December
22 2004 The last day the first day
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Today
is the anniversary of my stolen child....12 months ago
today
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I
got into it again with the “again” I
have been this whole year. It is sad; I suspect it will
never get any better then what it has been so far. Who
am to think I can manipulate anyone into a new character
with slogans and Philosophy of life; my life. Personality
will never bend over for the logical and the experienced
and sometime often the too loving. I am not a good person
for trying to engineer social order within my realm.
It backfired. And now I am sad, again… I’ll
live, again. Another Christmas will go with my gift returned.
And ill have another one sitting down in a dark corner,
never to be opened. I just want it to be all over and
disappear form my thoughts. When this year is over so
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I’m off till January 10th 2005, I will still
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December
22 2004 about last Tuesday night the Fantastic Four
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Team
Stick It In's
Fantastic Four |
Sorry
for the delay on the images I have been taking these last
couple of days I have literately hundreds to edit so it will
take time for me to catch up, between shopping and working
it has been a little crazy so bare with me please... |
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E-bar
XXXmas party 2004 Thumbnails
and Pics will be up in a few days...In the mean time here is
a movie or---
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4:20pm I got some sass...
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5:38pm She
hangs up on me....Things are not cool again. Masha said
to me yesterday if you let someone getaway with something
once,
the'll do it again. I know this O so well. I need to stop
being a Frodo. And I also need to learn too-dont give anything
away and expect
to recieve. To do this is get nothing in return but headache
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5:55pm My
Buddie Surprises me with a cup of Hot coco in my time
of headache. |
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December
20th 2004 going to work... |
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Dude
i tell-ya-Alexa really-am-a-smart guy she got
some real good marble in da brains
Follow
the leader? Your doing exactly what you want to
do...Maybe its ok. But then again to do something
just to do it means you might need something. Inspiration
comes from the dam nest places. If things get cold
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3:45pm
yet again I got the weather talk thing...Just
for the record. It really annoys the shit out of me
to talk about the weather
on an obvious climate day. If its raining a lot or hard
or
what ever and ya-say, "wet enough for ya?" or on
a cold day say "Cold enough for ya?" I’m
going to ignore you. And if you persist to get an answer
from me, I will persist on ignoring you even harder.
Until I just wont say anything to you. |
Im
ready...The cold, the rain, the
quiet, the betrayel, the love,
the hate, the stupidity, the good the bad the ugly, the everything,
I hope like Frodo form Lord of the rings. Frodo always
giving
Golem
a chance
even though Sam Wise was
right. you can still hope even though you know the truth. It
still hurts but you wont die from it. You can though. Mad
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Another
entry I wrote on January 7 2004
One
of my not so good days
The
Ice king
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January –07-2004
1:29pm
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Jack Frost had a little sister.
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Mother nature always told me before I went out side to play, stay away
from Jack, he’s trouble. Jack whom? I ask Mother Nature as she
bundles my coat on. Jack Frost she said. So for many season, I only
played with Fall, Spring and Summer; Winter was always alone on the
monkey bars. Fall became my best friend. Fall always listen to me and
had the coolest colors, but I always felt death with fall, it never
bothered me much, but still, that feeling of dying always lead to winter
and I was never allowed to play with winter; Always skip it, always
felt warm. Summer is were I learned all my emotion and Spring is-well-you-know,
that time for the birds and the fleas. My adult life came around yet-still
Mother Nature still bundles me up before going outside to play. I was
warned every winter till my adult life by Mother Nature stay away from
jack, and of course this time I did the exact opposite and played,
with Jack. Mother stopped warning after I did that. She departed, I
never saw her again; welcome to adult hood. Jack was an all right guy,
nothing to be careful about. So at least I thought. So he became a
regular in my playtime for many winters after that. Then one winter
when I had a meeting to play with Jack he bought along someone. Her
skin was like snow; her hair was colored with the darkest earth tones.
Her eyes were like fire and she smelled like a peach. In contrast to
the white snow she was nocturnal all over; Dark. Jack Frost had a little
sister. I adored her. And that’s when I felt the cold for the
first time.
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December
19 2004 An entry I wrote on January 7 2004
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January –07-2004
12:53am
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Last day of school.
Today
I graduated. Since the beginning of 2003 till January
6 2004 I have been taking lessons in the art of pettiness
immaturity, bitterness, hate, lying and last but
not least cold. An ice king I am now capable of becoming
at will. With this new added power I am ready to
tackle the world with better knowledge and understanding
of its rules. For about a year I have been studying
hard for similar test that I have taken many times
before and failed. This element, opposite of the
dragons breath was the final, and I past. I dove
head into the abyss of the icy tundra all-ready knowing
what was in stored. It was the same result occurring
on the coming end of the chill. But this time it
was different on my receiving end. I still kept my
head up and braved the frozen wind. For the first
time, I prevented it from dosing my flame from within.
I now know how to be one with ice. My chameleon like
state saved me from falling down and being stampeded
by a winter of mixed up words and ill-persuasive
suggestions leading me into the kitchen of Jack Frost
and becoming a warm dinner for his little sister.
It feels good to be cold, being cold numbs the summer
in you, and let’s “self” take over
the spring. Self is the preservation of survival.
I’ve have had strong influences of the cold
for the last couple of months and been shown how
this disdain-wintry-storm works. With this new wisdom
of “self’ I am xxxtorious over all that
is-of-pettiness immaturity, bitterness, hate, lying
and last but not least cold.
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Jim or someone else will take over. I will leave him with 8 countrymen
on the roster. I will no longer be a captain. I will now be a king.
I will appoint a leader to rule and move to different countries and
live different adventures.
the
king has spoken
I
require lots of space…. Don’t crowd me.
I like to hold a grudge it helps me be angry and hate people more.
I like dorks, there amusing and entertaining. I
lie alot. it makes things better all the time.
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December
16 2004 About Wed and Thursday
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Wednesday….
So Julie and I went to Rachel’s office party on Wed night. It was fun we
drank a lot. One of my colleges was there at the party as well, small world.
Afterward we went to shoot at Joes. Bill never showed up with his crack head
friend with the hooker. That would have been good if he brought them along to
Rachel’s Office, they might have eaten all the cheese, like Julie and I
did. Julie ate all the cheese, Julie is a cheese eater. Cheese eating Julie.
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Thursday….
I’m sitting at the bar and some of the regulars are calling me ugly boy
Will. Later in the evening Serafina walks in with Adrian and Serfins say to me “ Our
Team needs cute guys William” She was joking of course. She was mocking
an entry I wrote a few days ago about how the guys on my team are not so cute.
I told her my feelings were a little hurt about some things but not in the way
most people think. I like the way I look, even if I say I don’t like the
way I look, it’s hard to believe it when I have over 500 or more pics of
myself on the Internet. “That’s all the world needs, more Pics of
William” Douglas Mulkerns, another not so cute boy of Rumblefish. Anyway
she tells me (Serafina) that cute boys don’t play pool to well. I almost
agree. She says “ I don’t think anybody meant to hurt your feelings
William, sometimes people already assume you’re a secure person, you give
off this fending for yourself persona. I have been told this before and because
of it I get a little kicked around assuming I can take the beating. I’m
gona be 50 years old and I barely look thirty some days, it’s a genetic
disposition that runs in my family, we are like turtles, we age every 18 months
or so not 12 like most, it might be the Sicilian in me. Anyway, I never noticed
before. but there are hardly any young people in the APA. I never really noticed
until I got slapped in the face with the reality of ugly man-boy will day. Vic,
Vic, Serfina and Aaron are; I think one, of maybe just a few more in our division
that are barley legal to play. 21 and over please. Wow, my eagerness’ for
killer players blinded me to this. I didn’t notice my kids are acting hungry
for closer to age colleagues. Colleagues are over rated anyway. Oh well. Right
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About
late last Monday night and this afternoon...soup ala lucy
in the sky with dimonds
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After
the big lose...it was time
to drink....and drink....and
drink
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Ugly
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What
kind of a person is entertained by another person
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the dugout when the player is up too bat, please
pay attention, support and respect your fellow
teammate swinging. Its ok to spit and yell while
this is happening, but most importantly please be a cute boy.....
I’m not good looking enough to be observed while I’m up to
bat. “Put cute boys on the team William.” I then think to
myself after I here this a few hundred times for the last couple of weeks “Why?
Is it going to improve your game? For what, so you can get bord with
him after the 4th week and then start complaing about him on the fifth?
So you can play while he is watching and then when you lose get angry
and embarressed? I guess I’m
not good looking enough, Old and ugly Will” Talk
about a slap in the face. I Guess Karma is making its final rounds from
a time when I said and succeeded in accomplishing the mission of putting
cute girls on my team. After the insults the game begins. I respected
and paid close attention to my “seeking cute boy” players
games when they were up. It didn’t occur to me until I was shooting
that I am not good looking enough to get in return that same attention
and respect from my “seeking for cute boy” players. Too bad,
now I’m going to put more girls on the team. I’ll make sure
they’re real short fat and ugly and like to sleep around maybe
some with facile hairs as well; this is so I can feel prettier.
 I
am looking to put together a winning team. Not a cute losing
team. ” I
know this guy, he shoots real well but he’s only 20 years old.” Is
your game going to get better if i put him on? Telling
me you want to put some minor on the team tells me a lot more about you
than only just you wanting to put a minor on the team. I think the APA
has a teenager league. Me? I like to stick to legal and adult. All I
heard was Yap Yap Yap while I was shooting; I hate that shit, not the
yap yap yap but the fact that it was coming from my team while I was
shooting during a critical match, amazing. It’s a bar, yeah, ok,
to converse and be a little merry is normal, people have been doing it
for centuries, but during a critical match? Not good. A little support
please. I’m here to Fucken win, if want to be social, ill do it
any other day of the week. Then again I did write in an early entry on
how a close team can hurt the team it self as well. Example: My Tuesday
team is in first place, were so far In first, we can forfeit the last
two weeks and still stay in first, but this teams well put together team
work bought everybody up a level, this is just as bad as the fragmentation
team work of the “ugly boys with girls who want cute boys on the
team-team.” So what do you do? Why even play anymore William? Your
Dammed if you win your Dammed if
you lose but two things are for sure. One: When you have players who
are more concerned about how the guys
look on the team as apposed to how there game looks for the team then
its time to really start to consider how to clean up the team. And two,
I’m ugly. My team is out of it for the season now, we had a chance
but I blew it, why? Cause I’m not a good-looking loser.
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Person
one tells me they don’t like person two
for a long time, person two seems too perfect
and has given person one an impression of
stability in character, personality along with a healthy productive life
style. Then of course, first impressions are gone with time, person two
doesn’t seem so perfect anymore too person one, now person one
likes person two after hearing some stories of imperfect events in the
life of person two. Why? Security? Don’t feel alone anymore? Entertained
maybe? Arrogance? Lets see what my guru has to say…
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Formidable and Wise Alexa says: |
 If one person takes pleasure in the sufferings of
another, then he is not a good person. If he
is reveling in the imperfections and
misfortunes of the other person, he is probably
insecure and taking comfort in the negative
experiences endured by another....
Then again, if a person sees imperfections in another's life as an indication
that the other person is suddenly human, approachable, reachable, loveable,
then maybe that's not such a bad thing. But it still probably means that
the person is insecure. |
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 An
Entry from March
4 2004 Thursday
That’s
it. I need a new pair of shoes. Kenneth Cole.
I want that cologne Black. It smell’s good. I
want pool to be new to me. I drew today and it was
almost
like I never left. I had a big tuna sandwich today.
The moon
is almost full. My battery is almost dead in my I book.
I saw Elise with two hot guys on the way home today.
Sometimes I wish I had her energy. She is like a force
of nature sometimes, she ether work with the weather
or she doesn’t. I saw Nichole today at the bar. We spoke. She in a situation
I have been in before. That was comforting, knowing that shit didn’t
only happen to me. It takes a long time to get over it.
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Cynthia is
on a detoxify gig right now. No cigs. No booze. No
caffeine. Nothing bad for the body. Maybe that is
a sign to do the same thing. It’s March. It’s
a great time to start with the beauty treatments.
Sam is drunk at the bar. Sam bit my stomach. Sam
belched. Sam is dressed nice. Sam is hot. I take
that back. Sam is deadly hot. Her best friend as
there; at the bar. Her best friend told me Sam farts.
That’s ok. So do I. Sleep to dream. ...more?
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I was a little bored today at the bar. Even though it had nice ladies hanging
around I just felt irritated. The days are moving bye to quickly. I was taking
my shooting for granted again and didn’t shoot up to standards. I have
a million things to do and I don’t know were to begin. I will make a list
of things to do and must accomplish. I will eat no junk food on Thursday. Well
maybe an oatmeal cookie or two. There is a crazy lady who live up stairs from
the bar complaining about the load music. The police came last night and asked
what is going on.
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gave Michelle an iguana. I need to go to the pool hall and do
drills. I need to up date my website. I need to shave.
I need to get more ram for my i-book.
I need to get a new pair of shoes. I need to cut the ends of my hair. I need
to fix my teeth. I need to be converged in a way were I know I am not alone.
I am indebt up to my ears. I need
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