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Tuesday |
you
will see me... |
| April 23rd
2007 Monday |
you
wont see me... |
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Threw you the obvious and you,
Flew with it on your back, a, Name in your recollection,
Down among a million same, Difficult not to feel a little
bit, Disappointed, and passed over, When I look right through,
To see you naked but oblivious, And you don't see, Me
But I threw you the obvious just
to, See if there's more behind the, Eyes of a fallen angel,
Eyes of a tragedy
Here I am expecting just a little
bit, Too much from the wounded, But I see, see through it
all, See through, see you
'Cause I threw you the obvious
to, See what occurs behind the, Eyes of a fallen angel, Eyes
of a tragedy
Oh well, Oh well, Apparently nothing,
Apparently nothing at all
You don't, you don't, you don't
see me, You don't, you don't, you don't see me, You don't,
you don't, you don't see me, You don't, you don't, you don't
see me, You don't see me, You don't, You don't, You
don't see me at all
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21 22nd 2007 last fri-sat-sun |
I’m
going to be in Vegas for a bit few days, do’n
that pool thang. My next entry will be next week
some time, peace. CLICK
the numbers, FOR SOME HISTORY > 03, 02, 01, 12
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Pizza time
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After Remo got all runny-d'uh-table
on me |
I dined with JQ |
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Saranii, got all get'n d'uh ball
in d'uh hole |
not on me though |
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dukey ladies |
like to play pool |
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Shoot it |
Saranii |
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The long track
 
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Jae, for brunch, lunch and cake... |
Then I lost a leg |
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| "When you got my feeling move'n, like, all around inside, and they-aint-any-kinds of words, to describe-dem-feel'ns, then, I'm just too cool, to tell you how much I love you, dats all....see..." Jae said somtin like dat. |
 
broken
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man hole ...
 The
whole getting dumb-numb thing, booze, drunk, fun. Is
not quite what it was before. Sure, its fun, to drink,
I know all about, youth, birth, very young. Ya-know, it
seems like this year so far, I’m boozed up as much
as I am not. Its getting so, that, the get high on liquor
thing, is turning into just another state of mind; or attitude,
its not up, its not down, its more like a subtle personality
side step adjustment. It is not an escape anymore is what
I’m saying, writing,
blogging; whatever. Which is fine, really, but its kind
of nice to at least have the option of forgetting for a
while, about, work, people, places, moments. But now, with
the drinking, work, people, issues, those little things,
I am trying to put aside in the mind for awhile, in my
drunken state, is moving, not in that,‘forget for
awhile place’ in my brain,
instead, it is moving to my stomach, its not hunger. I
kept it simple, these last two days with the booze, I drank,
I got buzzed and kept it as a light buzz, even still, its
not like before though. So what’s the point? Any
way, I think it’s better to be happy and fed before
you get lofty, than it is to not be. I’m
going to be in Vegas for a bit few days, do’n that
pool thang. My next entry will be next week some time,
peace.
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2007 about Thursday night |
ABC.
D+ |
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Back
Mikey Shots
Supadra
 
Sushi is good for the, huh, belly?
 
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it owns you...
Even if she, is, all
these things, things, you prefer not to be a part of,
if she has one thing, one quality, so subtle, so un-noticed
by most, but only by you. That one thing, washes all
the other things, things you perfer not to be a part
of, away...
Mind you I'm not talking
about Supadra, or anybody else in the entry below. This
was just a thought, I had watching the matches last night.
Pool can really expose
things about you, thnigs you'd rather not anyone else
see...
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Olga. Do'n the Willi-Eye Brow... |
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Howie |
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Sean Morgan. Alaska |
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Brian, Smith |
Helen and some Booty. |
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2007 about Wednesday. Get ready |
Mojito,
Practice, ABC |
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Supadra stays
down on her shot |
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Dont come up. |
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Tony T tells me about people who
have no out. |
You cant describe depth in words. |
    
J and me havwe a very high self esteem
    
I ate Sushi with Jason down town
    
I realized today... I give people, out's,
many times.
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Supadra goes down, on the shot.
 
J tells
me, she thinks, some blogs, are a form of mental masterbation,
I think, J doesnt like my blog.
 
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2007 about Tuesday Late night |
Chalk
Line |
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2007 Tuesday early evening |
willb,
illju lieakigen; evereric. 666 |
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2007 Monday Night |
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I’m not going to sit, bitch and moan,
at least I hope I don’t seem to be right
now. But, I’m going to say this, once again.
“Never make, anyone, a priority
if your are there option”
I have thrown this in the face
of many people before, yesterday, it was thrown
in my face, hard, you would think, I learned this
from experience already over the years, but the
thing with that motto is, you forget, that, first
priority, is an option that is random, too suite
the convenience of the choice-maker, not you, who
are not a priority. One is responsible for there
actions; no matter what. As a pool captain, 5 years,
one of my concerns is the result of my actions,
during, my organization for team Rumble fish-Get
In the Hole. Value is consequence, consequence
is not good or bad; though, the austerity of
it will never change, no matter what ones raison
d'être
for it is. If you commit, while, you are fully
aware of the consequence of your pretense, weather
it be good or bad, benefiting or costly, you, one,
are responsible for it, no matter the reason, excuse
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“Never make, anyone,
a priority
if your are there option”
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A motto that works, but
not always to your convenience.
Predicting
and weighing the consequence of what one
decides to do, most of the time, has no time
constraint, unless, ones natural instinct
is in order for an immediate decision for
action, meaning, a
car is coming, fast, she doesn’t see
it, push her out of the way, do this act,
without thinking, can illustrate ones nature;
thinking about pushing her out of the way
when there is no time to think? Can also
be used to get the message of ones nature.
If one is able to for see the consequence
of ones act, committed with an option attached
to time? To change that circumstance of consequence?
One is still responsible for their action,
even if it is or is not preventable. Ones
priorities should always be filtered with
consideration of any class of consequences.
Maybe this is how one can see, how one is
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2007 Monday Morning |
This
past weekend |
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The outside layer is
thick and soft
The inside is thin and healthy |
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Friday. D’uh big sandwich. |
Mocha and bread good |
I played pool,
there was this dude, at ABC, he got on my nerve.
Then I left. I like eating, I like drinking,
I like people, but I don’t like crowds.
I like Mocha once in a blue. A good sandwich
and change of pace, once in a green. Ying and
yang 8 or 9, its all goes round and round. 256,
256, makes 512, but you need at least, 1000,
to get the simple things going smoothly.
On Saturday.
Too and fro.
I borrowed
my brother’s car, and drove into the city.
Did you ever have one of those days were you
just don’t feel like applying, or by means
of, via, the right application, for bowdlerization
particular kinds of mind-state and people-media?
Say, act as if, to be ok, with complete and udder
bullshit? Tolerance is my middle name, WTF, I
detest small talk, the weather, latest sports
cast, petty gossip, lately, some days; I just
don’t feel like commencing with silly bullshit.
Kali, I addressed her beauty first, than her
name second. I feel the rain, pending; on Saturday
night, up high in the atmosphere, grey, but not
low on the ground? He said to me, about her,
there is something there but something missing.
Jennie, is so far-far away. I was completely
free of squabbling with my natural sense of compulsion,
for consumption, I think it best, to just stop
eating bad food for awhile. I drank, then, Captain
Morgan with Naldo.
On
Sunday… I'll write about it later....about
the rain. |
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people, but I don’t like crowds. I like Mocha
once in a blue.
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Caroline Pao | caroline-pao.com *
billiard-life.com
| Robert Salazar * |
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Wall of bling
 
Cha cha cha
Caroline-Pao.com | Up shortly
 
 
 
Tony Robles, Mosconi Cup.
 
Leaky
 
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The Cookie was mine, not Howies. |
Goes places in life? Yeah, like
Vegas, ta-lose-u'r loot |
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Another great moment, for my Holly's
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| April 12th
2007. Thinking Thursday Morning |
24
months later |
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4/18/05
I distinctly remember saying to Dor,---- |
"One
day, your going to win that vegas pool
thang" |
 All
this Internet blog writing has been very restorative
to this painting, facing the wall, long contained
by time. On the 11th of April 2007, for about
a large percent of that day, since my waking
up out of bed, my eyes prefer to be, closed,
literally, my eyes just close, without me willing
it on a conscious level, there is no sleepiness’ ether,
they just close. It is like, meditating, everything
is quite in my mind, then, I get quick little
torrent of back peddling thoughts, then calm
comes again, it is weird and wonderful. I have
been missing the ball in playtime, but in game
time I have not been missing the ball. Jay, the
new bar tender, is like the sun, I stared her
right in the eyes today, just to see through
her windows, and the glare, the light, it was
bright, to much for my eyes, to continue staring
through the beautiful windows, I do that, sometimes,
stare, quickly, in people, just to see there
splendor, whats ahead. Jason came over to shoot,
Jason is putting the ball in the hole, Larry
is good, so is KC. ABC I saw Jackie, I got hungry,
I saw Stuart, I went to eat, I saw Jackie, I
said that already, its raining outside, I found
an umbrella, thanks to the sun for lighting the
way. This whole entry is based on this one thought
I had today, It came in, and it reeked so badly,
like a festering laceration, I shook it off quickly,
in just four foot steps on the sidewalk, it was
gone, in-between these lines. I can’t find
it anymore. Some things in its place, that’s
making it, erase; it’s
me, Its I, eye, eyes. That’s all that was
left. Dorothy is going to Vegas, she won the
APA Singles Regional 2007. Eye goe-thru-low
I days for months at a time. |
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like looking, seeing thru Smoke
a Shot`
My eyes are burning
looking in you too long. Thats a good thing. |
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"People take what they
want, when they want it, but don’t
know how to put it back when they are done with it"
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| April 11th
2007 |
About
Tuesday Night |
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Poor man's Sushi
Dont make me Mad!!!!!
POW!!!!!
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| Lasting impressions
If you’re in the right, or feel you
are in the right, then why would you stand
down? Action speaks louder than words,
most always, in my opinion. Maintain your
dignity, and self-respect in tense matters.
In the long run, that will be, what the
majority of your peers, friends and loved
ones will recollect, when something in
past is evaluated for ones considered wisdom
during a game of scrabble. I make efforts
to avoid creating embarrassing visual impressions
of a scene to be remembered, later, when
it comes to my maturity, responsibility
and professionalism, being judged during
my adult life, or least I have tried not
to get embarrassed.
I have once or twice, thrown a
fit, cried in public, break a hole in the
wall, shatter glass or have done something
physical or verbal, that will have a longer
lasting impression, then the reason for
making that impression in the first place.
Emotions, never to tamed by logic, but
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