Goodbye
June 2005 . Its been,... HmmmmmMMmm? Oh I know, Juneyish...
| Wed June
29 2005 |
About
last night....
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| Tuesday June
28 2005 |
Thank
U Craigs List....
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| Monday June
27 2005 |
This
past weekend
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| Saturday June
25 2005 |
What
a nice day....
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| Friday June
23 2005 |
Bonus,
Dreams and Wonder
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Last night-Forever rebounded.
You live one way for a long, long time and the way
you were living for long time became sour, sad,
corrupted so then you lose it. How you lose it
weather it was your fault or the other parties
fault is circumstantial none the less you feel
real hurt, lost, and sacred and want to take away
the pain so you invent a pain killer. You embark
on a water down version of the way you were just
before you became sour, sad, corrupted and full
of pain. Only now you discover that this new watered
down-make-believe version of what once was is missing
something important you know you cant get back.
So you dry everything up along with all involved
with this new damp version of what you had before
and you try again and again and again until you
find yourself making others feel the same way you
did before you started taking your painkillers.
Its time to stop and face the fact that-that life
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9:00am Got
a big fat surprise in the mail today!!!
Yeah baby!!! We are large and incharge!!!
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3:30pm I
just got invited to a Japanese Gay Disco party
this Sunday. |
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Dreaming: So
I had this dream last night I couldn’t
make out. I walked into a pet store that was
filled to the
top with water, that’s right I was under
water when I walk in, I was breathing though. Every
thing was floating, all the animals and cages and
things you would find in a pet store. Bill and
Jay were there in the under water pet store to
prevent me from doing something, I don’t
know what that something was though, but they were
there stop me, or help me or rescue me. I walked
around the pet store and stared at all the floating
animals, a little puppy dog floating next to me
bark at me like a dog would sound like barking
underwater. The water was so clear, it was as if
everything was just floating in the air in slow
motion. Jay was around but I couldn’t see
him and bill was standing next to me. I grabbed
the doggy and ran out the store, Bill started chasing
me but I couldn’t tell if he was trying to
stop me or help me, Jay stood in the store. I started
to bleed in my hands and the puppy started to turn
green. I remember falling down in a ditch made
of rocks and barb wire but I didn’t get cut
or hurt, the puppy dog was still alive but it wasn’t
moving. I also remember floating and wearing weird
clothing. Bill pulled me out of the Ditch and said
something to me but I couldn’t make it out,
it was like I was under water, but I heard the
Puppy dog bark? Why couldn’t I here bill
when we splashed out of the pet store. I’m
still trying to remember the other things but
I cant right now. |
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Its Jessica and Nell |
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Its Kimba
Grunland is a a good shooter. |
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Wonder.
Just say goodnight, to yourself may I remind
you
when you find you, you're all alone is when you've
got to be strong cause that's when they call
you, in the night he's got your picture in his
mind he's got your number on a paper at his disposal
anytime is it really true could you save yourself
for someone who, loves you for you so many times
we just give it away, to someone who someone
who you Played pool in a bar the back of a car
and for a moment you felt important but not in
your
heart my self esteem, it's been low, go ahead and count it's been lower than
low i know the feeling of it stealing life out from under me i want to learn,
how
you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you so many times we just
give it away to someone who, couldn't even remember your name could you save
yourself for someone who, loves you for you, loves me for me
give it away to someone who someone who will cherish your name cause I want
to learn, can you save yourself for someone who will love you for you so many
times we just give it away, someone who, couldn't even remember your name you
save yourself for someone who, loves
you for you, loves me for me give it away to someone who, someone who will
cherish your name
cherish your name |
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GET IN THE HOLE
| Thursday June
23 2005 |
Hello
there...from the last two days
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Dave
Padilla is GoooOoOoooOOooD |
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The
Tuesday APA night games for both E-bar
teams had some moving results. It's good
to see fire and ice once in while.
Beasties
Boys "Shit, if it’s going to
be that kind of a party
I’m gonna stick my dick in the mashed potatoes" |
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A little about yesterday and other
days of recent |
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had such a shifty day on Wed-day-time. I
am so mixed up about some people sometimes. I just
want to move forward and not walk over anyone in the
process. Ill walk next to you, I’m fine with
that. Ya-know nobody is loosing so why get so petty
about it? I live in NYC and barely keep my head above
water. I’ll just let it sit and let it do what
it feels it needs to do. My instinct is telling me
that is the right thing to do. Anyway, I need to follow
my own advice. Let it sit and marinate I say to the
player with game, you need to get worse before you
better. This happens to everybody. Easier said than
dealing with, I know. I can’t make the ball when
I need to but if I let go and have faith in my ability?
So, these last few weeks have been a growing experience.
I feel it. Physically. I think of my love life and
the first person that comes into my head are the ones
I don’t need to love. You cant own love it owns
u. I think of her and the others and feel scared. I
turn to pool and try and get good. What ever that means.
Surfing is something a surfer does because he loves
not because he must for a point. Break, the habits
I must. Neo is cool under pressure. Zen is zoning in
and out for me. I think that is what I want? Fire and
ice. Not ice calm with no judgment while addressing
the issue with appropriate action. Like the ref. |
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| Wednesday June
22 2005 |
Retraction
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We
played Sunday it was fun...
Dear APA player
I don’t insult player’s games, (that
would be bad karma). But I am not a big fan when
one of my own players throws me off with miss information.
Don’t get me wrong. I know he's got game, but
it wasn’t him or his game I was talking about
as the false alarm. That dudes game is goOOooOOoooOOOoOODDDddDDDDD!!!!!
He's not a false alarm, if anything; his game is
4-alarm fire. What kind of a player would I be if
I said he aint got game? Not a very smart one. I'm
not in the habit of insulting people on my website,
it was an honest mistake in my writing; I'm not that
smart when it comes to writing. Especially when I
had to edit 178 pics that day. I am sorry if came
across as a dumbass. Sometimes my grammar is not
so good and I sometimes might write something that
will getconstrued as an insult from time to time.
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| Tuesday June
21 2005 |
About
the last few days....
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This
morning |
I
woke up this morning to smell the rose
Julie gave me for my Birthday yesterday, it bloomed
lovely
... Then I stared at the tee shirt George
gave me for my birthday last night, I think I will
wear it |
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Last
Friday night.... |
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It
was yur-averge night at the Ebar |
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Saturday starting at about 6:00pm ending at about 5:00am
Sunday |
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Last
Sunday.... |
We
played Sunday it was fun ...
 Dear
APA player I
don’t insult player’s games, (that would
be bad karma). But I am not a big fan when one of my
own players throws me off with miss information. Don’t
get me wrong. I know he's got game, but it wasn’t
him or his game I was talking about as the false alarm.
That dudes game is goOOooOOoooOOOoOODDDddDDDDD!!!!! He's
not a false alarm, if anything; his game is 4-alarm fire.
What kind of a player would I be if I said he aint got
game? Not a very smart one. I'm not in the habit of insulting
people on my website, it was an honest mistake in my
writing; I'm not that smart when it comes to writing.
Especially when I had to edit 178 pics that day. I am
sorry if came across as a dumbass. Sometimes my grammar
is not so good and I sometimes might write something
that will get construed as an insult from time to time.
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My Birthday... The Laundry The Sox and The Dryer.... a warm
land of magic and fabric softner.... |
 11:00am
While I was doing the laundry my sock disappeared
in the dryer dimension again.... 3 pair of socks
means six soxs in the dryer only too discover later
when the drying is done you only get back 3-and-3-4th
sox-back. Meaning five soxs. Every dryer is a door
way to another place, a land of lost sox’s.
These sox’s are waging a war with the land
of the lost keys. Maybe one day I will throw myself
in the dryer on perm press mode and find my self
in this land of lost sox and finally retrieve all
the lost sox I have had taken away from me for this
cross dimensional campaign taking place.
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| Friday June
17 2005 |
Dinner
at Joe Shang Howdy Doodee
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 Jennie
once told me after a few shots of Saki
in small town in korea...
Don’t eat the food in China town
William ... Especially the purple stuff.
Those cool trendy
back ally way resturuant places are rondom with
the orders and erbs. Also, dont eat the
beef or the Beff... the Beff is code word
for
Purple
stuff...
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Push
aside that "Sunny D" and try
the purple stuff, see what happens later,
Ok,
if Julie tries it, so will I. |
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Serafina
just makes the dinner after her trip from the Dominican
Republic. She likes Domincan boys in little speedoes. |
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After
dinner and our adventures in Narnia me and Julie
was kinda hoping for some free Sangria Thursdays
at AJ'S... no dice... |
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12:30am
at the bar.. It happened just when Peter and Chynna
left in a hurry. |
Me and Julie
Found Azland hanging out in China Town |
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