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Friday 2/25/05
Let it snow......

I will update shortly, in the mean time...Have a weekend, good or bad it doesnt matter, Cause some people cant even have a real weekend to begin with...

ps: I dont give a shit about APA skill levels, your all the same to me....One game, twelve games, your always gona play so what difference does a numberd amount race make other than a point....When you win or when you lose your just gona play again, so what the flip you talking about your a 5 or 3 or 7 or whatever.

February love Tell me what you think of it!!!


Thursday 2/24/05
The Captain needs a coach....
Secretan Lance
Leadership is not so much about technique and methods as it is about opening the heart. Leadership is about inspiration—of oneself and of others. Great leadership is about human experiences, not processes. Leadership is not a formula or a program, it is a human activity that comes from the heart and considers the hearts of others. It is an attitude, not a routine.
Peter F. Drucker
Leadership is not magnetic personality—that can just as well be a glib tongue. It is not "making friends and influencing people"—that is flattery. Leadership is lifting a person's vision to higher sights, the raising of a person's performance to a higher standard, the building of a personality beyond its normal limitations.
No captain can do very wrong if he places his ship alongside that of the enemy. 
Lao Tzu
A leader is best when people barely know he exists, not so good when people obey and acclaim him, worse when they despise him....But of a good leader who talks little when his work is done, his aim fulfilled, they will say, "We did it ourselves.
Chinese proverb
An army of a thousand is easy to find, but, ah, how difficult to find a general.
Lao Tzu
Be gentle and you can be bold; be frugal and you can be liberal; avoid putting yourself before others and you can become a leader among men.
Donald H. McGannon
Leadership is action, not position.
Fred Smith
Leadership is getting people to work for you when they are not obligated.
A real leader faces the music, even when he doesn't like the tune.
Mary D. Poole
Leadership should be more participative than directive, more enabling than performing.
Marian Anderson
Leadership should be born out of the understanding of the needs of those who would be affected by it.
James L. Fisher
The main characteristics of effective leadership are intelligence, integrity or loyalty, mystique, humor, discipline, courage, self sufficieny and confidence.


Wed 2/23/05
About Monday and Tusday
Monday: Rumblefish. 1 win out of least the bake Ziti was good....

Burgandy Bake Ziti
If ya want the win...ya gota put the work involed for a win just wanting to win aint gona make it happen

Tuesday: Stick it in. 4 wins out of 5.... are we getting there boys and girls ???

I won my match, I didnt beat him though, I just won...Winning sucks somethimes, now beating the guy, thats something a diffrent flavor....

Retraction of a log entry on recent events:
Cooper has bought it to my attention that Team "Stick it in" didn't win the Triannuals, the Team "got in" the Cities not won the cities even though we had to play another team before the bye spot on the second round filled in with his team. Cooper wants to remind we are not real winners of the Trianuuals; we just got in the cities cause his team turned into the bye team. I mean those guys won two seasons in a row, Like Rumblefish and Stick it in did a few seasons before, Wow!!! For years and years and years and years years and years that team was dormant in the trophie department, No wins no trophies no nothing but now with so much pool power around there tiny table, the lions of D-bar is loose and on the prowl for championships wins all over the citie.. Thanks for the reminder Coop...TeaM Stick it in owes You Big !!!!!!

.............I miss you Sam...


Tuesday 2/22/05
Some people....

Spurned woman held in mutilation
ANCHORAGE - A 35-year-old Anchorage woman is behind bars after cutting off her boyfriend's penis and flushing it down the toilet because he wanted to leave her, police said.
Doctors were able to reattach the organ after she dropped the 44-year-old off at the hospital early Sunday morning and workers from the local water company rescued the severed body part from the toilet's plumbing.
The events began unfolding around midnight on Saturday, after the man, who was not identified, told Kim Tran that he wanted out of their relationship, which had lasted a little less than a year, police said.
According to legal papers, the victim was married to Tran's aunt, and that all three had been living together.
" The aunt was aware of the relationship, and it was causing problems," a police spokeswoman told the Anchorage Daily News.
Tran allegedly wanted the victim to leave her aunt, but he refused. When the man turned Tran down, they argued, but police said they later decided to have sex anyway.
Tran persuaded her reluctant lover to let her tie his hands to a window knob behind the bed.
That's when she pulled out a kitchen knife and sliced off the penis, police said. After flushing it down the toilet, Tran untied the man and took him to the hospital.
Emergency workers called cops, who rushed to the home and found Tran cleaning up the blood in the house, police said.
After they figured out what happened, quick-thinking officers called the Anchorage Water and Wastewater Utility and a worker was able to take apart the toilet.
Tran was jailed on charges of first-degree assault, domestic violence and tampering with evidence.
She was expected to get a bail hearing today. She faces up to 20 years in prison if convicted of all charges.
News Staff Reports

I thought playing on the APA was ruff


Here is some real good advice for my ugly freind Oliver

Approaching Women is Fun
Approaching women is fun ! I think the biggest problem with shy boy is he thinks that approaching women is painful, and he would rather not have to do it. That is a problem. The problem is 100% mental. You have to make approaching women fun. I think this point is critical and you should take it serious.
It's ok to be a little nervous. A woman won't punish you for being a little nervous. She is a little nervous too! Women know it takes courage to do what you are doing. It takes courage for her to speak with you too. It is a good day when two brave people of the opposite sex are having an unplanned chat for the very first time. Women know exactly why you are making contact with them. Don't think for a second that a woman doesn't know what you are doing. She will let you know if she doesn't want to talk. Make sure you are giving her good eye contact during the whole approach. The game is on within the first 5 seconds. A good thing to note is that most women do want to talk! It's flirting! Women love it! It's fun! She will tell her girlfriends all about it. Her girlfriends are at full attention and they want to know all of the details! If she is in your social circle the word about you gets out fast. And it's all good! Women start approaching you! They usually won't just walk up to you and say something. What they do is move their body into position for you to make your move! Trust me, I know what I am talking about here. Pay attention to the number of women coming into your contact range is increasing. It's not an accident. Flirting has an amazing effect with women! I think women hear about my flirting or they see it with their own eyes and they want me to flirt with them too !
This is not something that only I can do. You can do the same thing too. Be nice to the women you approach, and they will say nice things about you. Don't confuse this with being a "nice guy" because that is different. The "nice guy" doesn't have the courage to approach women nor does he have a clue about what women are attracted and not attracted to. What I mean by be nice is to give her good eye contact, pay attention and show interest in what she says, show her your smile (she will mirror it), and thank her for answering your questions. Always close a talkative woman. Ask for her name, tell her it was a nice chat, and ask her to do it again. Never act like a pussy. Be friendly but be masculine. Never show needy. Keep in mind that you don't have to prove anything to a woman on first contact. Just let her know that you are interested in her. Sometimes the real hot ones need to be told what to do. I'm not getting into that here. If you want a really hot one then you are better off listening to somebody else rather than me. My techniques are good with all women but they are not really that effective with HB9 and HB10. Those super hot women need more challenge or they get bored. You can bust her ass with C+F and probably get her excited. I'm not very good at C+F because I don't use it very much. However, I do have extremely good timing when I do use it.
I recommend the 3-second rule. Believe me it works. All you have to do is just tell yourself I am using the 3-second rule starting right now, and in the moment of truth you just do it! "Excuse me, what time is it?" That's not very good but it's better than nothing. You can follow with another question. But you got to take action. When you come into contact range with an HB just do it! Don't think about it, don't hesitate, don't chicken out, and you just stop her and say, "Excuse me." All I can do is telling you how to do it. The rest is up to you. Don't tell yourself it sounds good but I don't need to do that. Trust me, you do need to do that. That is a great experiment and it produces more contact with women than anything I have ever done before in my life! You can do it. Make approaching women fun. When you are in the right attitude go into the 3-second rule and just do it. Don't think about maybe doing it. Do it! If you can't do the 3-second rule then you are a pussy. I'm sorry but that is the way I feel about it. If you want to start getting results than do what I said. If you can't do this simple exercise than everything I say to you is pointless. This kind of advice doesn't work when you save it for a rainy day. You have to do it right now. Start by making this fun. You can study seduction until you are old and gray and never learn a damn thing. Taking action is required to move your game to the next level. You have to take some chances. Tell yourself I can do it and I am going to do it and I am going to start right now! Do it! Their just women! You are not bothering her! 1 out of 20 women will seem rude. Sometimes a woman will sigh a little bit but so what. I have never had a woman give me a really hard time. It's just something that men make up in their minds. Maybe you see it on TV. It's not realistic. One sigh in 20 women is not a big deal. When you see your game improving instantly you can laugh off a bad approach. You can see the big picture and how it doesn't even matter. You can instantly see that you do have many choices. Those women can see it too. But talking about it and doing it is different. Don't take my word for it. Prove it to yourself.
Don't use the 3-second rule in bars and clubs. I don't do it there unless a woman comes into my space. Yeah, it does work in their too but the women have their bitch shields up, and they sometimes are cold. Just ask them to dance instead. Don't talk to her while you are dancing. Maybe ask her what is her name but that's it. Save the talk for after the dance. Do the 3-second rule away from the normal socializing circles like bars, clubs, and parties.
That's it. I don't know what else I can tell you about first contact. Just keep doing it. Do it for practice too. Don't just save your skills for that special woman you want to be with. I did that and it doesn't work. You have to stay active. Eventually you will get your chance with the woman that you want to be with. You will be better because you got the practice in. In the mean time take what lays you can get.
Contributed by : Jerry Collins

Why The Cocky And Funny Attitude Is Attractive To Women... And How To Use It I get a lot of email from guys who don't quite get the Cocky & Funny attitude.
It just doesn't make sense to some guys that teasing women, busting their balls, being slightly arrogant, not kissing up to them, etc. could or should make them feel attraction.
I can understand this, because I was exactly the same way the first few times I heard it and saw it.
I kept thinking to myself "If I do this cocky and funny thing, I'm only going to come across as arrogant... and that can't make women like me more."
Well, was I ever wrong.
You must always remember that ATTRACTION isn't logical. It doesn't follow the rules that it "should" follow. ATTRACTION is a very powerful emotion that has reasons and triggers that don't make any sense at first glance...
I'm sure you've seen many attractive women with guys who mistreated them, abused them, and were exactly the opposite of what you'd expect a woman to accept.
Why ?
In the beginning she felt attraction, and as bad as it may sound, almost no amount of being "bad", abusive, or jerk-ish can convince a woman feeling a strong attraction to leave.
So let me take the opportunity to talk a bit about the Cocky & Funny attitude, why it works, and how to use it to attract women (without having to be an abusive jerk).
First of all, you have to remember that the formula is Cocky PLUS Funny. Always both.
If you act too cocky, you'll come off as arrogant and insecure only.
If you're just funny, always telling jokes, and making people laugh, you will probably come across as "too goofy."
But if you use BOTH together, you will create magic. Cocky & Funny is like sparring... it's sport... it's fun... it's challenging... it's interesting when used with skill.
So let's get clear about what "Cocky & Funny" is.
Here's a cocky statement:
" Her dress makes her look fat."
Here's a Cocky & Funny statement:
" If she doesn't find a dress that fits better, the fashion police are going to send in the SWAT team for her ass."
Get it ?
Start with arrogance, then add humor.
So why does it work to attract women ?
Well, the short (email newsletter size) answer is:
Women are attracted to "alpha male" types. We all know that. Women are attracted to a sense of humor. We all know that one too.
Women AREN'T attracted to men who give away their power, kiss up to them, smother them with attention, act like whipped puppies, and get nervous just being in the same room.
If you meet an attractive women, and IMMEDIATELY start giving her a hard time about something, busting on her, and have fun, it basically says:
" You are interesting enough to talk to, but you're going to have to do a lot more than just look good to impress me. Your beauty doesn't make me nervous in the slightest, I'm perfectly calm, and in fact, I'm so comfortable that I just noticed something about you that I'm going to make fun of..."
There is no faster way on earth to communicate all the right attitudes, beliefs, self-image, comfort, confidence, and power than to be Cocky & Funny.
(Except maybe to put on a perfect Brad Pitt costume.)
Once you start using this attitude, you will be totally astounded at the results.
Here's a low-risk example:
Next time you're at the grocery store in the checkout line paying for your groceries, say:
" So how much of this cash do you get to keep?" (as you hand her the money)
She'll probably laugh and say: "None... I wish."
To which you can respond with:
" Oh, I figured you were pocketing 10 or 20%... I assumed you were rich and could support me. But now I'm not interested... I want a rich girl." (Turn up your nose)
This is a great one. It's always fun to ask a woman if she's rich or famous, then when she says that she's not, tell her that it messed up her chances with you, and that you're not interested anymore.
One of the keys to the Cocky & Funny attitude is to never "crack." If she opens her mouth and gives you the "I can't believe you just said that" look, you need to turn it up a notch...
Most guys will crack and say "Oh, I was just kidding."
DON'T DO THAT! It makes you look like a WUSSY.

In the example above, if the checker looks at you and gives you the open mouthed "I can't believe you said that" look, and says "Hey! I may not be rich, but I'm nice!", you just look at her and say "Nice isn't good enough, I need RICH AND nice."
Your goal is not to upset a woman, but to get under her skin enough by teasing, busting on her, and acting Cocky & Funny that it ignites the magical challenge/ attraction mechanism.
So get out there and use it, because the magic formula of Cocky & Funny will create all kinds of good things for you. You'll see.

Good luck Oliver, I know you need the help getting the women you want...


Monday February 21 2005 3:00pm
 Profile of a Sociopath
A number of mind-manipulating cult leaders may exhibit many of the behavioral characteristics of a sociopath--an outstanding ability to charm and seduce followers. Since they appear apparently normal, they are not easily recognizable as deviant or disturbed. Although only a trained professional can make a diagnosis, it is important to be able to recognize the personality type in order to avoid further abuse. These traits also apply to a one-on-one cultic relationship.

Glibness/Superficial Charm

Language can be used without effort by them to confuse and convince their audience. Captivating storytellers that exude self-confidence, they can spin a web that intrigues others. Since they are persuasive, they have the capacity to destroy their critics verbally or emotionally.

Manipulative and Conning
They never recognize the rights of others and see their self-serving behaviors permissible. They appear to be charming, yet are covertly hostile and domineering, seeing their victim as merely an instrument to be used. They dominate and humiliate their victims.

Grandiose Sense of Self

Feels entitled to certain things as "their right." Craves adulation and attendance. Must be the center of attention with their own fantasies as the "spokesman for God," "enlightened," "leader of humankind," etc. Creates an us-versus-them mentality

Pathological Lying
Has no problem lying coolly and easily and it is almost impossible for them to be truthful on a consistent basis. Can create, and get caught up in, a complex belief about their own powers and abilities. Extremely convincing and able to pass lie detector tests.

Lack of Remorse, Shame or Guilt
A deep seated rage, which is split off and repressed, is at their core. Does not see others around them as people, but only as targets and opportunities. Instead of friends, they have victims and accomplices who end up as victims. The end always justifies the means and they let nothing stand in their way.

Shallow Emotions

When they show what seems to be warmth, joy, love and compassion, it is more feigned than experienced and serves an ulterior motive. Outraged by insignificant matters, yet remaining unmoved and cold by what would upset a normal person. Since they are not genuine, neither are their promises.

Incapacity for Love

While they talk about "God's love" they are unable to give or receive it. Since they do not believe in the genuineness of their followers' love, they are very harsh in testing it from their devotees and expect them to feel guilt for their failings. Expects unconditional surrender.

Need for Stimulation
Living on the edge, yet testing the beliefs of their followers with bizarre rules, punishments and behaviors. Verbal outbursts and physical punishments are normal.

Callousness/Lack of Empathy
Unable to empathize with the pain of their victims, having only contempt for others' feelings of distress and readily taking advantage of them. Their skills are used to exploit, abuse and exert power. Since the follower cannot believe their leader would callously hurt them, they rationalize the behavior as necessary for their (or the group's) own "good" and deny the abuse. When devotees become aware of the exploitation it feels like a "spiritual rape" to them.

Poor Behavioral Controls/Impulsive Nature
Rage and abuse, alternating with small expressions of love and approval produce an addictive cycle for abuser and abused, as well as creating hopelessness in the victim. Believe they are all-powerful, all-knowing, entitled to every wish, no sense of personal boundaries, no concern for their impact on others. The followers only see them as near perfect.

Early Behavior Problems/Juvenile Delinquency
Usually has a history of behavioral and academic difficulties, yet "gets by" by conning others. Problems in making and keeping friends; aberrant behaviors such as cruelty to people or animals, stealing, etc.

Not concerned about wrecking others' lives and dreams. Oblivious or indifferent to the devastation they cause. Does not accept blame themselves, but blame their followers or others outside their group. Blame reinforces passivity and obedience and produces guilt, shame, terror and conformity in the followers.

Promiscuous Sexual Behavior/Infidelity
Totalist leaders frequently practice promiscuity, child sexual abuse, rape and sexual acting out of all sorts. This is usually kept hidden from all but the inner circle. Stringent sexual control of their followers, such as forced breakups and divorces, removal of children from parents, rules for dating, etc.

Lack of Realistic Life Plan/Parasitic Lifestyle

Tends to move around a lot or makes all encompassing promises for the future. Many groups claim as their goal world-domination or other utopian promises. Great contrast between the leader's opulent lifestyle and the followers' impoverishment. Support by gifts and donations from the followers who are pressured to give through fear and guilt. Highly sensitive to their own pain and health.

Criminal or Entrepreneurial Versatility
Changes their image and that of the group as needed to avoid prosecution and to increase income and to recruit a range of members. Is able to adapt or relocate as needed to preserve the group. Can resurface later with a new name, a new front group and a new twist on the scam.
Other Related Qualities:
Contemptuous of those who seek to understand them
Does not perceive that anything is wrong with them
Only rarely in difficulty with the law, but seeks out situations where their tyrannical behavior will be tolerated, condoned, or admired
Conventional appearance
Goal of enslavement of their victim(s)
Exercises despotic control over every aspect of the victim's life
Has an emotional need to justify their crimes and therefore needs their victim's affirmation (respect, gratitude and love)
Ultimate goal is the creation of a willing victim
Incapable of real human attachment to another
Unable to feel remorse or guilt
Extreme narcissism and grandiose
May state readily that their goal is to rule the world


Sunday 2/20/05
Happy Birthday Ronnie

Val made Chilli and we ate it....Hmmm we ate Val's Chilli...Hmmmmmm.Val.
Crissy Showed Up to Celebrate an Anniversary as well. 5 Years today she meet her Hubby on Rons B-day at Ebar...
The Bar was Full and everybody was Lucy in the sky with chilli

3:35pm Sunday
Hello there people of web log land
Its me again talking about stuff I really wont remember in a logical sense a few months from now, I will just remember the feeling about today’s events then only to pull out the references of those emotions, using also my web log to enhance the memories. Today is Sunday February 20th 2005 and I am now on my way to my pool match. Today is also Ronnie’s birthday. He is 37 years old. He is going to have a party today at the Bar, there will be lots of cheese and people will be crackers eating the cheese. Earlier this week I made a flyer for Ronnie about his birthday party and we posted them up in the bar. Towards the end of the week Ronnie noticed I wrote something on the flyer he didn’t approve of, it said “free food, free drinks and free music,” He scratched out the free drinks part on all the flyers and said to me that was bad to do, I asked him why? He said we don’t give free drinks at the bar. I said we don’t give free water at the bar? If I intended on meaning free liquor then I would’ve wrote “free liquor” or “free beer”. I am sure he is going to gave a way a free drink or two for his buddies as well. I don’t feel bad for writing this on the flyer “Free drinks” because water is free. Ass-uming makes you look like an ass sometimes.
Anyway yesterday I noticed Val again. Beautiful young girls of the world always stir feelings inside me. I hate-em, I love-em, do I need-em? Aroma is essential in my life, some women smell yummy some women smell stinky some women fragrances are required for my drive. Some young girls do and say things that drive me away, and vise versa, why would I be driven away from impulsive words? That’s silly I think then again this is how we function some times from day to day.
4:05pm Sunday
I call Masha
“ Hay Mash can I get Eli’s Number
Oh…. He's right here
Hey Eli, you showing up?
No…you didn’t tell me you were we were shooting ill be there next week were is it?
4:08pm Sunday
But the rest of the team new were to play and I didn’t call them…
Anyway… So I am at the match, we won the coin toss, they put up, they put up a three so I put up Jay, Jay wins two zip, we put up, we put up Brian, Brain wins three zip, they put up, they put up Tom I put up Spencer, Spencer wins 5 two one, Piranha is up four games, the team is good. We stood together from beginning to end with no animosity and disrespect for each other, I like my Sunday team very much; we function well.
Ronnie’s Party is starting to pick up, lots of people showed up and had a good time. Crissy Ladd showed not only to say Happy B-day to Ron but also to celebrate her anniversary with her hubby five years today they meet at the E-bar on Ron’s B-day. Later I got real drunk and hung with Alex, Tawny, Lindsay and Rich, we had some fun, some Cuban Rum and did a toast to the Dominican republic, and I don’t remember too much after that toast.
It snowing out side and I called George to pick me up and take me home, George tried to slip away from this one because it was snowing and hard to get back into the city from the bogie down, I still made him come anyway, George is cool.


Saturday 2/19/05
Stuff I did on Sat....


Friday 2/18/05
About Last Night and a little of today. Practice practice practice...

Large and in charge....

Dont mess with her paper

10:00am About this morning, the weather was strange....

Whats up with this blizzard man???!
10 min later it Stops cold...What the Flip man???
there was a Blizzard..I swear....See!!
......Now its clear blue sky...Whats the dill with this ill in the weather man.....
4:00pm This afternoon.....She made my day...
So I get this response from Craig’s list, “Female pool player needs good male pool player to get the skills needed for a win, Photo included”
I get the photo in my Gmail account
Here is the photo I get.....
I respond with giving her my cell number and website and ask permission if I can place this photo on my site, she gives me the ok…
To be continued

You aint gona-get-good by just saying you want to be good...You need to hon-the-skill-with lots and lots of drills...So then later you can give your opponent and observers of the game the thrill of your kill by getting to the hill ahead of Jill...A quote by Willy Will-Will who makes his bill with his frill at the mill, till hes ill...Peace out -yo, and remember to take your pills for your fill so you can go to the Vill....age and drink.
12:00pm Serafina and Michelle show whos got the strong arm of the Bar...


Thursday 2/17/05
About Last Night | Jay | MEND | See it |

Greene Street Salon at Pompei A.D.’s C3 Gallery 115 Grand Street 4th Floor [between Broadway and Mercer]

A little about this morning...pressure


A not so definite day so far..


I said no for a reason
Ok ill give him another chance…he blew it… ok ill give him another chance…ok he blew it again….ok ill give him another chance… ok he blew it again. Your wrong William for making that decision, give him another chance, but he will keep doing the same thing! No he wont, give him another chance…ok I will… He blew it again. Give him another chance…. No I wont. Why not William? Cause you are not the one who has to deal with him… why don’t you hire him? Let him sit at your desk and break your shit. Hell no so he can keep doing what he doing with me.
Time and Time again
It is a never-ending cycle with this shit. He, she, him, her, them, they, it, there or what ever I know what I like and what I don’t like. I don’t know what exactly will work but I know what will not work. On that note I just came to the conclusion if ya-had any sport to begin with then you wouldn’t be worrying about your handiwork. You don’t hear the older troupe saying shit like that. I place things were they are for a reason, and if I have to fire you it's because you are not going to workout. Trying to force me to deal with someone who doesn’t want to do things a certain way is only going to lead to a terrible ending. But if he only new firing him only makes my job twice as hard he might have just tried to work with me a little better and not against me. We both lose, well at least I still have work. Lets just hope the next job he gets he doesn’t repeat the same shit pattern.
I was getting crank phone calls at my desk yesterday all afternoon...Heavy accents telling me sad things. I think I know who it was and it is ok…sometimes people are too proud to admit they make mistakes. Sometimes people feel stupid after the fact that they do things with out considering the consequence, emotion over rides logic all the time and sometimes it can be good or sometimes I can come back and bite you in your dreams. I am not in an angry mood or anything like that right now but I feel much better writing about it.


Wed 2/16/05
William and Michelle love Calculation 66% About Tuesday Night APA Stuff

Fuck You
If ya got an issue grab-a-tissue...or grab William...
The Vinny T man Plays team Stick it in
Kings and Queens
Porn and cup cake Time with William Julie Bill Michelle
A long Night
long long Night
Michelle makes it hard for her opponent
Stick it in Won 3 out of 5


Tuesday 2/15/05
About Last Night Rumbfish Vs Sophies

Rumble Fish Wins 4 out of 5...It was a sexy night a feverish night. Very sultry and succulent. Our skin waswere warm wet on the outside but even hotter on the inside (The bar I mean). Our strokes were long, hard, smooth and fast (pool strokes of the game I mean.) The winners were, Jay, Masha, Peter and the Captain. I gave my Valentine: Flowers, Candy, a cup of tea for her flew and a shot of the old night train... after that we had hot sex on the pool table...not...

Rumblefish 5.0 Vs Sophies


Monday 2/14/05
Definitions of Valentine on the Web:

To receive a greeting on Saint Valentine's Day; "will you be my valentine?"

A card sent or given (as to a sweetheart) on Saint Valentine's Day

A corruption of galantin (a lover, a dangler), a gallant. St. Valentine was selected for the sweet-hearts' saint because of his name. Similar changes are seen in gallant and valiant. Valentine. One of the Two Gentlemen of Verona; his serving-man is Speed. The other gentleman is Proteus, whose serving-man is Launce. (Shakespeare: Two Gentlemen of Verona. Valentine, in Congreve's Love for Love. Betterton's great character. Valentine (The Brave). Brother of Orson and the son of Bellisant, sister of King Pepin and wife of Alexander, Emperor of Constantinople. The twin brothers were born in a wood, near Orleans, and while their mother went in search of Orson, who had been carried off by a bear, Pepin happened to see Valentine and took him under his charge. He married Clerimond, niece of the Green Knight. (Valentine and Orson.

Happy V Day


Sunday 2/13/05
Amsterdam Vs Perhana 2.0:

Lappy has always been one of my influences of my pool game, if I have any...



Sat 2/12/05
Another night at the Ebar....Nell and Jen take over....

makes you
sexy, strong and maybe a little Wild

Will & Jen love calculation 33%

Will & Nell love calculation 53%

That’s it!! The new Pink!!! We will call this color Sangria.... For Valentine I will wear the color Sangria…
AJ's Game is getting pretty...But his mouth is getting ugly....
Real Sober William, Real Drunk Willam, Real red Shoes, real people hanging around...

The peeps play a little.....


Sat Morning 2/12/05
For me and all to know...I am not kidding when I say....

Being a leader is not about ability it’s about responsibility.

And in some cases you’re not a real leader

until you’ve lost first.



Fri 2/11/05
Friday night....
A little Party at the Ebar.... Exceeded capacity limits....To much Hottoge at the bar....


Friday 2/11/05
Thursday night Zen and BoOzE...Three shots and lots of beer....

So it’s normal to…to feel the way I am feeling right now. I Thought I lost my Chi, my peace, my calm, my center or what ever you want to call Zen. It was that numb feeling that happen before the fire began. Quite before the storm thing. Anyway the little Buda said to me just except how you’re feeling so those feeling can disintegrate. Be fortunate you are aware that you have fire and ice to manage.

AJ Now is a level Five....

Ronnie is a Four...

Let the Smack-Talk begine...



Thursday 2/10/05
Year of the Rooster

The sign of the Rooster indicates a person who is hard-working and definite about their decisions. Roosters are not afraid to speak their minds and can therefore sometimes come across as boastful. They make good restaurant owners and world travellers.

The Rooster is a flamboyant personality, feisty and obstinate. He is quite the extrovert who loves to strut his stuff and is proud of who he is. Outwardly confident, the Rooster is also a trustworthy, hardworking individual. He’ll tell it like it is with no qualms or reservations.
Years of the Rooster
Rooster Years are tenth in the cycle following the Monkey Years, and recur every twelfth year. The Chinese New Year does not fall on a specific date, so it is essential to check the calendar to find the exact date on which each Rooster Year actually begins.

Roosters are very loyal individuals. They do not like dishonesty or mockery of any sort. They are blunt, up front and honest people and expect those around them to be the same. Roosters are happiest when they are surrounded by others, at a party or just a social gathering. They even enjoy the spotlight and will exhibit their charisma and wit in a minute. This star quality can be overbearing, for a Rooster expects you to listen to him while he speaks and can become agitated if you don’t. Roosters do have a tendency to brag about themselves and their achievements and demand an attentive audience when doing so.
People born in the Year of the Rooster share certain characteristics. The Rooster Sign is an abbreviated way of characterizing that individual’s personality. Following are features associated with the Sign of the Rooster.

Take a Number
Pic Above of me on the top right standing at my door was taken by Dela who is sitting with me on the left side

the Rooster is

Brave, Romantic, Motivated, Proud, Blunt, Resentful, Boastful...

also gets laid alot...

William & Dela love Calculation



Wed 2/09/05
For her....
Just say goodnight, to yourself
may I remind you
when you find you, you're all alone is when you've got to be strong
cause that's when they call you, in the night
he's got your picture in his mind
he's got your number on a paper at his disposal anytime
is it really true
could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you
so many times we just give it away, to someone who
someone who you
Played pool in a bar
the back of a car
and for a moment you felt important but not in your heart
my self esteem, it's been low, go ahead and count it's been lower than low
i know the feeling of it stealing life out from under me
i want to learn, how you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you
so many times we just give it away to someone who, couldn't even remember your name
could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you, loves me for me
give it away to someone who someone who will cherish your name
cause I want to learn, can you save yourself for
someone who will love you for you so many times we
just give it away, someone who, couldn't even remember your name
you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you,
loves me for me
give it away to someone who, someone who will
cherish your name
cherish your name


Wed 2/09/05
Kamikaze Night
About last Night with team Stick it in....

To keep your dignity, self respect and face with your team, one should always play to the best of there ability at all times. After the games are over that’s when a simple movement of marks help preserve your position. If one doesn’t like the idea of other looking at you like you don’t know how to make a ball then one should practice more.
“ I don’t want people thinking they can beat me.”
It shouldn’t matter to you what other people think of your game, no matter how well you play or shot that day there will always be somebody or some-bodies out there who will challenge your game, so if people around you think they are better then you so be it, action speaks loader than words.
You can’t make people think your good by telling them you are.
Beating your own drum only creates more pressure on you later when you play. If you have to walk the walk, then you have talk the talk. If you talk the talk and can’t walk the walk then you’re just a big mouth with no game. And what if you good and still have a big mouth, then I would think no matter how many times you win, you still loose.
Lying to your self hurts your game more than helps your game.
Denial is like playing pool with a bad back. Acting like a jester on the table also is a defense mechanism for fear. “I hit the ball that way because I didn’t care if I made it or not. You see, If I miss the pocket its because I was fooling around but if I made it in the pocket its because I can.”
Keeping face with your team is important.
Play to the best of your ability at all times. You see, if you play your best you show your team who are and what you are made of on the table, win or lose, this is scary and exposing but necessary for your self-respect and the respect of your team. Remember also the sheet doesn’t rate the quality of the game only the result. Meaning, play to the best of your ability and both captains (not the players) will make sure it is recorded appropriately at the end of the match.

Kamikaze Shots $2.00.
William 6-Shots and climbing

William & Serafina love Calculation 34%


Bluff. Keep it cool and don’t buckle or break. To keep one in control or get a grip on a situation sometimes you need to bluff or bull shit.
Fear. Make an excuse before the loss so when you loose you already have an excuse.
Patients. Waiting for a moment, something to happen or to make something happen when the time is right. I’m gona-catch you off guard and that’s when I will call my bluff to extract information out of-ya. While that was happening fear was the in front of me. He should really stop using preservation for the fear of loosing. How many years can one do this before somebody takes notice and says something? 15 or more apparently. It is embarrassing, to be playing for 15 years and still want to be a 4. You beat your own drum about how great you are but still your not toped ranked. The new guys and gals will believe the lies and listen to your drum music but the rest will start to put cottonballs in the ears, and me will just give you pity.
Once upon a time you were looked at as amazing but then you showed that you’re just a scared. It doesn’t feel good when your students look at you like a loser.

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Tuesday 2/08/05
8 On the Break Bill!!!!
About Monday Night

Bill gets an 8 on the break. Masha plays with dogs and came thru in the end, Vic-Vis did some awesome shots, Peter won his match lovely, and me? All I could think about is food...Yup an average night with Rumble fish...

It was good to hear the things Masha was saying at the end of her match. Coming to conclusion like that will make her a better player in the near future. On her match when her opponent was on the ropes the whole team helped him make the moves needed for the results he desired. I was sitting next the Masha and bill when her opponent was getting a coach.

I say to Masha
“ Oh look its Masha vs. Mona’s b team.”
Masha says. “ Wow how can I beat that?”
Bill says. “Five brains vs. one.”
I say. “ This is how teams win the point during the crunch.”

Implementing in your game a new attitude might be what some people need more than just adjusting their mechanics for making the shot. If your running the table regularly and you miss the critical ball or scratch on the shot only to make it easier for your opponent to win might be an indication you need some new strategic ideas to make sure that doesn’t happen again, a coach is what I am saying, Collaborating with your team mates for a coach might help you win. How many times you lose is a lot different from how many times you keep losing the same way.



Monday 2/07/05
About Sunday and Today, Superbowl Stuff and work...

Hey Alexa, were ya-goin? Are you going to the gym to burn off some of that super-bowl bloating?

There is no remedy for love but to love more.
Time and Time Again
You cannot hide
Your pedigree
Don't call me cynical.
I can't provide
A guarantee
Don't call me cynical.
Time and time again
I'm finding a better defense
The crime I charge against
Reminds me to check your intent
I won't retreat
I will not bend
Don't call me criminal.
Inform defeat
If I offend
Don't call me criminal.
Time and time again
I'm finding a better defense
The crime I charge against
Reminds me to check your intent
You never get something without sacrifice
You never get something for nothing
So name your price
Time and time again
I'm finding a better defense
The crime I charge against
Reminds me to check your intent
Time and time again
Time and time again


Saturday morning/Sat Night 2/05/05
...hello there people of earth...all is full of love...

People Change

The brothers

Sean Morgan And Al Morgan

Hang at the Ebar

Ive been drinking alot and still im stone cold sober inside...
It's all about strange movements at the Ebar Friday and Sat night...

For about only an hour I was madly crazy in love with Val. I don’t know what it was about Val, Visually its obvious. I mean look at her, but when it comes to William, (me) I/he tends see people from the inside out first not the outside in like most of the people of earth do. I don’t know what is going inside, but three shots of Johnny walker black one shot of whisky and a few buds re-created me with a fast beating heart rushing blood and breathing the word Val with every exhale after a hard swing from my bud. I saw some thing to fall in love with, at least for an hour. I go through love flashes a lot. I will be in love with some one for a few minutes or maybe a few hours or maybe a few days. I don’t know what it is with me and this thing called love. Sometimes when I love someone so much and I know I can’t be with them in the way I would like us too be, I will chase them away. Sometimes when I love someone I shouldn’t be in love with I will do something silly to embarrass myself so the other person can laugh at me, when people laugh at me I get nasty with em right back, doing this smothers the love thing I am infected with at the moment. When little boys like little girls little boys will pull there hair and make fun of them. I was Pulling Val’s hair I guess because I was feeling, well…immature. I am so lost right now. I’m not sad but I’m walking in a fog.

I am so over Val now...But still I am not over myself...

William & Valerie love Calculation 89%

early this morning...
If I change my taste in what I think is sexy in human symmetry and skin texture then I would be in a whole new world; if I changed my taste. How do you change your taste? By not having any? And just excepting everything? Or maybe not expecting anything? What ever the case, I need to start from the begining and dismiss my imprinted impression of my human condintion taste in people.
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Friday 2/04/05

New Yorkers! POOL PLAYERS NEEDED - WIN $20,000

Hey New York City Residents! GSN, The Network For Games Asks...CAN YOU HUSTLE YOUR WAY TO $20,000? Then we're looking for you! Mars Callahan, writer, director and star of "Poolhall Junkies" and SokoLobl Entertainment bring the exciting world of pool hustling to TV with a brand new series entitled "NO LIMIT 9 BALL." The show is set to premiere this June on GSN.
In each episode, four players use our money ($5,000) to bet, shoot and hustle their way to the $20,000 grand prize!
Producers are coming to the Big Apple looking for contestants to participate in the first round of shows.
You must have: --Great pool playing skills --A stellar, outgoing personality
--The ability to hustle under pressure --The desire to win $20,000
Auditions for the show are this Friday, February 4th 11am-3pm
Amsterdam Billiards
344 Amsterdam Ave
New York, NY 10024
For more information or video submissions, visit our website:

Thank for the heads up Ana....


Thursday 2/03/05

Sometimes the decisions I make may not seem like the right ones now but in the long run its worth it. A few days I was in a big bull fight and now it over. I hope for good. I feel a big weight lifted and I now can see clearly again. Some people just don’t quit. Some people just don’t know when to give it up. Some people are just hurting themselves in the long run. I am not a stupid man and I can see motive and selfishness a mile away from even the most seemingly victimized people. No body is a victim unless they want to be. And no one can make me say things that are not true just to patronize a lie for there own sake of self indulgence. I have been around the block a few times already and I know all kinds of walks of life. Today I have a bit of a cold and my head is a little bit in a fog. But that is ok cause right now I am very clear with every action I take.



Wed 2/02/05

Why we fall for the wrong people...
Well here it goes - I tried to narrow it down as much as I could, considering that I have conflicting opinions on this topic.

I think there are many reasons for falling in love with the "wrong" person. First and foremost I'd like to ask a question. Is that "wrong" person wrong in someone else's eyes and if yes why should it matter. If for the moment your love is right for you, be it hurtful, abusive, nonreceprecated or blissful, then what does it matter. The moments you devote to it will last forever.... and then you move on and find another love. The other day I said I was a non-believer, I take it back. I love too much.
I fell in love once with a boy who may be considered "wrong". Shortly after we met, he moved away to Poland. He came back to visit about once a year, but the relationship lived on in letters and an undying feeling of one day being with him. Sounds like an ideal noncommittal situation. Nevertheless, it was love - in the truest sense of the word.
During that time and since I seem to fall in short term love. Some of them were wrong and some will be my friends for the rest of my life.
So, in the end who am I to say why we love whom we love?
We just do - there is a spark - a chemical reaction of sorts that makes all your cells vibrate together to create an orgasm of the heart.
We don't choose love, it chooses us...

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Tuesday 2/01/05
....Thank goodness I am single.....

1. pussy whipped
(1) adj - situation whereupon a male is undeniably at the mercy of his high-maintinence girlfriend & answers to her every beck and call, usually followed by the reprioritizing of girlfriend over friends, family, school, food, water, and air.
(2) adj - making decisions based on the incentive of sex
(1) omg, tom's girl has him so fucking pussy whipped that instead of going to the yankees game with me and the boys, he spent his whole weekend at the pottery barn expo, picking out ceramic cats and china patterns. ::insert cracking bull-whip sound HERE::
(2) if she didn't give it up all the time, he wouldn't be so goddamned pussy whipped.

2. pussy whipped
When your woman has removed your balls and then filled the sack with a LoJack to track your every move!!
I cant go ANY where with out telling (insert name) where Ill be!

4. pussy whipped
when ur girlfriend is the penis of the relationship.
if she says jump, u ask how high?

5. pussy whipped
when a guy is controlled by his girlfriend, and does whatever she wants and is always a slave to her.
matt joganic
Ally was like "hey matt will you clean out my pussy" and matt did it because hes pussy whipped, then she made him cut his own nuts off.

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Tuesday 2/1/05
Wow....Incentive comes from all directions...
Today was half a brain day...

I have been through many boots for the snowy times and I have the largest collection of umbrellas than anyone else in my hood. Like the winter, spring, summer and fall, seasons come and seasons go…Just like people. And I’m ok with it.
It was pretty peacefull on Monday...No stress, no negative Vibe... everybody paid on time...and we won 3 of 5....So far Rumblefish looks pretty good....
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Monday 1/31/05
About last night....Feeling a little....

12:00pm We won the Triannuals and we went to celebrate at Michelle and Eric’s. Captain Morgan swash buckled me into a four-alarm hangover; Thanks cap.





Anyway...last night the winning teams celebrate a little...

Ok everybody...yagota leave now....your making too much noise....
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Sunday 1/30/05
We won the triannulas!!!!

The Winners!!!

The first time I ever got into the cities!!! Very Excited I am yessss. How feel you?

The unlikeliest people come together in moments and time of good or bad. Opposite attractions are common but when two different worlds come together and join as decide what that means...I might be dreaming again.

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Saturday 1/29/05
Getting ready to Rumble...So tired...


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