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Friday April 29 2005
This is bothering me.... a lot...

http:// Save Toby .com

Toby is the cutest little bunny on the planet. Unfortunately, he will DIE on June 30th, 2005 if you don.t help. I rescued him several months ago. I found him under my porch, soaking wet, injured from what appeared to be an attack from an alley cat. I took him in, thinking he had no chance to live from his injuries, but miraculously, he recovered. I have since spent several months nursing him to health. Toby is a fighter, that.s for sure.
Unfortunately, on June 30th, 2005, Toby will die. I am going to eat him. I am going to take Toby to a butcher to have him slaughter this cute bunny. I will then prepare Toby for a midsummer feast. I have several recipes under consideration, which can be seen, with some pretty graphic images, under the recipe section.
I don’t want to eat Toby, he is my friend, and he has always been the most loving, adorable pet. However, God as my witness, I will devour this little guy unless I receive 50,000$ USD into my account from donations or purchase of merchandise. You can help this poor, helpless bunny’s cause by making donations through my verified PayPal account by clicking on any of the Donate buttons on this site, or by purchasing merchandise at the online store.
Here is the current status of donations for Toby, as of April 24th, 2005. Thanks to everyone who has contributed!

On this note
I will update next Monday have a nice weekend


Thursday April 28 2005
About Stick it in last Tuesday night...

Superman and his side kick Pinky

watch Frankenjulie

shoot the balls through the holes

From my N- hood buddy and morning train companion Lielana closes her eyes under the-o-so popular yet getting a rep for being stolen a lot iPod. I known her since she was 11 years old. Now she's 23, and not looking so 11 years old anymore...Hmmmm? What are they feeding these kids now a days....


Wednesday April 27 2005
Choice. Red Pill Blue Pill Red Dice blue Dice

Definitions of Choice
* the person or thing chosen or selected; "he was my pick for pool player level 5"
* the act of choosing or selecting; "your choice of colors was unfortunate"; "you can take your pick"
* of superior grade; "choice wines"; "prime beef"; "prize carnations"; "quality paper"; "select peaches"
* appealing to refined taste; "choice wine"
* option: one of a number of things from which only one can be chosen; "what option did I have?"; "there no other alternative"; "my only choice is to refuse"
Definitions of Faith
* belief: a strong belief in a supernatural power or powers that control human destiny; "he lost his faith but not his morality"
* complete confidence in a person or plan etc; "he cherished the faith of a good woman"; "the doctor-patient relationship is based on trust"
* religion: institution to express belief in a divine power; "he was raised in the Baptist religion"; "a member of his own faith contradicted him"
* loyalty or allegiance to a cause or a person; "keep the faith"; "they broke faith with their investors"
Definitions of Karma
* Divine doctrine that each rebirth in the cycle of lives is based on the sum of the merit accumulated by an individual during his previous lives. Karma establishes the general tendency of a life but does not determine specific actions. In each life, the interaction between individual character and previously established karma forms the karma of succeeding lives.
*The law of cause and effect ("a deed, an action, cause-and-effect, fate") the balance of all of one's actions throughout all of one's incarnations, which thus determines one's future experiences; thus loosely, fate or destiny as a result of one's actions; should not be seen as any doctrine of sin and punishment, but as the working of the Law of Cause and Effect, or "what ye sow, so shall ye reap"
Definitions of Trust
* have confidence or faith in; "We can trust in God"; "Rely on your friends"; "bank on your good education"; "I swear by my grandmother's recipes"
* something (as property) held by one party (the trustee) for the benefit of another (the beneficiary); "he is the beneficiary of a generous trust set up by his father"
* reliance: certainty based on past experience; "he wrote the paper with considerable reliance on the work of other scientists"; "he put more trust in his own two legs than in the gun"
* allow without fear
* believe: be confident about something; "I believe that he will come back from the war"
* the trait of trusting; of believing in the honesty and reliability of others; "the experience destroyed his trust and personal dignity"
* a consortium of independent organizations formed to limit competition by controlling the production and distribution of a product or service; "they set up the trust in the hope of gaining a monopoly"
* hope: expect and wish; "I trust you will behave better from now on"; "I hope she understands that she cannot expect a raise"
* faith: complete confidence in a person or plan etc; "he cherished the faith of a good woman"; "the doctor-patient relationship is based on trust"
* entrust: confer a trust upon; "The messenger was entrusted with the general's secret"; "I commit my soul to God"
* extend credit to
* confidence: a trustful relationship; "he took me into his confidence"; "he betrayed their trust"
Karma and Murphy’s Law have one thing in common.
Both of these providence’s are not logical. Best guess, Faith, Luck, Chance or roll of the dice disobeys logic. When you choose to live in a particular manner, or make the ball in the hole in a certain way, (past present and-or future) I think it is or was or will be a choice based ill logic; or how your brought up or influenced during those clean blue print or blank canvas years of your life; child hood. Choice stems from faith, “stems” not is. Choice, Faith, Chance, Dice-roll-however you want to call illogic all fall in a category that is pro right-side of the brain; this is logical thinking. If you don’t believe in faith or have trust in your on natural ability then how can you know if it is the right choice? With a Win? Or a loss? Sometimes when you win you loose. To choose or “roll the dice” is not logical. Blue pill or red pill? Best guess? Or Logical choice? I like the green pill. The green pill is immediate. It is Reasonable to incorporate faith or “rolling the dice” for choosing the most logical way to make the ball in the hole. Can choice be a sum from and equation? Equations are universal; people drama, mathematical, left brain right brain and so on.
Below is something I wrote Back in August 2004

The religion of William
William's Eight (so far) deadly Sins of pool

But arent these all the things that make it great?

1. Arrogance: overbearing pride evidenced by a superior manner toward inferiors
2. Selfishness: stinginess resulting from a concern for your own welfare and a disregard of others.
3. Fear: The point at which the mind stops denying reality. The emotion of the ego, contrasted with love, the emotion given us by the all mighty; originates in the expected punishment for our seven deadly acts, which our guilt demands; the resulting terror over what we believe we deserve leads us -- through the dynamics of denial and projection -- to defend ourselves by attacking others, which merely reinforces our sense of vulnerability and fear, establishing a xxxxxious circle of fear and defense.
4. Anger: a strong emotion; a feeling that is oriented toward some real or supposed grievance
5. Cheater: someone who leads you to believe something that is not true.
6. Lying: the deliberate act of deviating from the truth. A false statement (in an academic matter) made with the conscious intent to mislead others.
7. Denial: Inability to acknowledge something apparent to others. It can be an involuntary coping strategy. a process of automatically blocking out awareness of painful realities, thoughts, or feelings in order to protect oneself from emotional distress
8. Opinionated: obstinate in your opinions.


Tuesday April 26 2005 about last Monday night
Jay tells me let it go William, let it go.

You never really waist your time unless you learn something from it.
Then again what do you learn? That all depends. Is it something you learned before and just for got? Or ignored… Are you consistent with repeating the same mistake over and over? Yesterday my heart broke, again, but this time it seemed not quit as hard as the first time. Like more diluted or something, I almost cried, almost but not quiet. After an hour or so I just dealt with it, I have done it before. It makes me sad though, I almost felt like I wasted my time but I didn’t, it all depend on how I choose to look at it. I did think about my best friend whom I lost a while ago, my heart was racing through out my entire match. I won it though but I still felt like I lost. But I didn’t really, at least I hope I didn’t.

Sometimes I can be a little Thug

Image by James Boyaca: Thug


Monday April 20 2005
About last Sunday Night

No excuse for me...

If there was any table that " i " will remember never to play on again.. it will be Blue Room. Nice bar great Hot Wings (Atomic,) But The balls are not to my practice or likeing. The center of the Balls don't meet with the edge of the rail bumpers of the table. That means The balls are 25% smaller and heaver than your average Bar cue ball. Some people can rock out on tables like this but other like my self need a little adjusting. But for some people like myself bye the time you adjust it dosent matter anymore...


Anway we did ok...



Sunday at Blue Room... or Atomic Wings

Here is something "i" wrote back in July 2004 and shouldve remember what I learned the first time this happend to me...

Did you know that the center of the cue ball on a standard size pool table should meet and be parallel with the blade of the rail on the pool table, there are variation of rail height’s so the center of the cue ball can be a few centimeters below the rail which is fine provided the pockets are two balls width. But if the cue balls center is more that 25% lower then the blade of the rail then you will get a faster carom or a slower of the rail shot. And it within the norm that the ball will compinsate for it size with weight so the balls will be small and heavy. If you want to play with snooker size cue balls on a pool table go two SoHo Billiards.

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Sometimes when I am shooting a big Star Bucks Nine ball Extravaganza with Douglas, towards the end of the match sometimes it ends up with me missing the critical ball and Douglas getting it in the hole, but afterwards when we go to shake hands, I noticed him and myself a little out of breath. Why? Breathing is factor in your game, it a universal rhythm of things.
The Inner game of Tennis

By Timothy Gallwey
Saturday 9:30 pm on the way to the doorframe.
Here is a piece of a book I read today that I have slightly changed a bit, by adding in bold text the word “pool” I like to compare the same principle of “the inner game” Timothy Gallwey is using for tennis.

Tim Gallwey
Tim Gallwey attended Harvard University where he majored in English Literature and captained the tennis team. He served as an officer in the US Navy and was one of the founders of a liberal arts college in the Midwest. Starting in the mid 1970's Tim Gallwey produced a series of best selling books, which set forth a new methodology for the development of personal and professional excellence in a variety of fields.


For the last twenty years Gallwey has been introducing the Inner Game approach to corporations looking for better ways to manage change. Through lectures, consulting, and seminars, his focus has been directed at three targets, 1) helping all individuals in a company learn how to learn, and think for themselves, 2) helping managers learn how to coach, 3) helping leaders learn to create "learning organizations." His long-term clients have included AT&T, IBM, Arco, Anheuser Busch, Apple Computer, and The Coca-Cola Company. His newest professional interest is helping people who work in teams to learn how to work together more effectively.

From Pg 123, 124
Just as the breath has a twofold rhythm which echoes the ebb and flow of the tides, the rising and setting of the sun, the up and the down, the in and the out, the potential and the actual, the masculine and the feminine, so too do most of the strokes in (pool) or tennis repeat the rhythm. Ground strokes have a back and forth, a feminine and a masculine component. With a backswing there is no follow-through without a follow-through, the back swing is of no use.
There is practical application of this notion. One-way to achieve a natural rhythm in your ground strokes or (pool strokes) is to allow your swing to (almost) coincide with your breathing. Inhale with your backswing and exhale with your follow through.
Match your stroke with your breathing not your breathing with your strokes. You will find that in a short period any jerkiness and irregularity of rhythm will begin to fall away.
I don’t recommend this practice during a match, for the obvious reason that it is difficult to regulate your breath to the irregularities of the point, but if you practice matching strokes with breath in practice, the basic rhythm will become a part of your game.
The Inner Game Of Tennis, 1974 version ISBN 0-553-27372-8
Sun 12:55am
On the way home, I left the doorframe early today. Its raining outside and my stomach hurts. I can’t hold down food for some reason. From the short time I was there at the E-bar I was reminded of a few things. Miniature natives always need to feel hegemony to compensate for lack of charisma, no matter what. Keep your ideas on how to run three balls on a pool table to yourself, James is real annoying.
Mon 2:45pm
I went to Hugo Boss with a friend of mine yesterday; she was a outlandish to shop with. She waned me to buy up the whole store. I told her I was better off buying Hugo Boss stock shares instead of the shit she was picking. I like Hugo Boss clothing; I wish I had the means to buy the things I wanted. Afterward I went to my pool match and played on a table were the center of the balls was lower then the edge of the bumpers, the balls were also real heavy. Jay shot the best on the table out of the whole team, my team is good but I new something was going to go a miss with this kind of table.

Jay goes downs on the Chicken but comes up in his Game....MVP here he comes!!!!


Friday Afternoon/Night April 22 2005
Happy Birthday Jen!!!!

2:00pm Fri. The pic on the right was taken last Wed afternoon...

A Family portrait

Michelle and Eric

Always on the Move


Any Way

Happy Birthday Jen!!!!


Thursday April 21 2005
2 out of 8 people begin with the letter" i " here at the APA
I have come across this so many times in my almost 4 years on the APA already and it always ends up being the same thing over and over again. All I can do is laugh ....
Is that team winning? Good take me or “ i ” with you…what do mean theirs no “ i ” in team? Yeah but there’s “me” in team, If “ i ” join a team then that team better win around me or “ i ” am going to take my “ i ”-game” to another team. Because a team that’s winning should take me with them. You mean this team is in the finals already? But can “ i ” be an “ i ” on this team? “ i ” want to be on another team so “ i ” can be the reason why we won. Can’t “ i ” just do what “ i ” want? If “ i ” want to join a different team every season then why cant “ i ”? So what the team needs me to win as team, its about what “ i ” want, who cares about team cohesion along with eight people functioning as one to get the win that can only be done as a team. This other team looks like fun and “ i ” want to be on it. So what “ i ” have done this 8 or 9 times already in less than 3 years and “ i ” might get a rep as a flake team player on the APA like some already have, its all about me, and what “ i ” want and how “ i ” want it, I just want to win, oh…wait a minute…I’m already on a team that’s a few games away from the goal. Ahhh. Who cares, “ i ” just want to win with a team “ i ” like not with a team “ i ” don’t want to be with anymore. Its all about me, and not about what team is, even though “ i ” want to be on a team that wants to have team players who function as a team and not as someone who is on a team that’s not the team.
Things like this never end good its a good thing “ i ” don’t abandon ship when the going gets not going my way.
- ps: “ in the word team you can also spell: meat, met, tea, mea, mate, tame, tam-tam, and a few more words that mean something.
On a lighter note


Wednesday April 20 2005
!!!!!!! JULIE !!!!!!!

Come and play Julie some 8 ball

and watch her make giant shots

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Wednesday April 20 2005
Too bad for some, but not for me....

Talk smack ...
(v) To talk trash, insulting or casting doubt on a person's ability.
Before the fight, the boxers were talking smack to each other.
Source: keyshaw, Jun 24, 2004
Talk shit ...
1. To say something uncalled-for or rude
2. To say something for the purpose of instigating a strong (possibly negative) reaction
3. To speak lies behind a person's back
4. To make empty threats
1. "Damn your mom was good in bed last night"
2. "You're ex-boyfriend told me that his vacuum cleaner can give better head."
3. "She sucks all her boyfriend's friend's dicks!"
4. "I'm gonna break your kneecaps open and make you drink the fluid"
Source: Lila & Set, Dec 29, 2003
So I sent my definition to It should be up shortly
Loud mouth ...
1.Dont know when to shut the fuck up.
2.Talks before thinking about what they are saying or why they are saying it without consideration for consequences.
3. Big mouth, loud mouth.
4. Diarrhea of the mouth.
5. Talk the talk but too scared to walk the walk.
6.Someone who says they are great at playing pool until they get on the pool table and then cant make a ball in the hole; and have nothing but excuses afterward.
Potty mouth stinks ...
Especially for your game (pool.) Some people think its fun to upset the feelings of there opponent after they win their game; they seem to feel good about this on the surface. They feel above there opponent. Superior. On top. They feel good about gloating.
To gloat: malicious satisfaction. Now, some times some people gloat because of there own insecure reasons; these reasons vary from person to person. Some people like to goade you into talking smack, He will do this goading by lying about you to your face, putting words in your mouth in front of others, making things up about you, pretending to play dumb after they do something nasty to you or say subtle nasty passive aggressive comments about you, or just beat his own drum load enough to water down your 15 minutes. When you react to this, this gives the geode’r comfort. The comfort is the “defending himself thing” against you, getting you angry, pushing your buttons and getting under your skin, this is his security blanket, his safety net for the thing inside of him that caused him to have potty mouth to begin with. Someone yelling and screaming or making loud excuses when they loose there match inadvertently makes their opponent look better, appear mature, look professional.
Don’t goad me to talk shit please, because sadly not nuch will be said from me but mostly just you listening to the sound of your own big mouth...
The games people play sometimes extend way out side the table regardless of the fact that you are only appearing to be playing on the table with one other person. Sometimes the game begins after the match is over.

... Team Stick it In got two of five yesterday ... That's ok ... We are good anyway ...

A tiny bit of Monday

but a little more of Tuesday Night

The season is coming to a close.

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Tuesday April 19 2005
The new 78!!! years Old Pope is the new hope

Cardinals Sing a Tough Tune
Ratzinger—now Pope Benedict XVI—a true hardliner
by Rema Rahman
April 19th, 2005 1:39 PM

Hardline Catholics got their man Tuesday, when the College of Cardinals elected its dean, Cardinal Joseph Ratzinger, as the 265th pope.
Soon after the white smoke appeared from a Sistine Chapel chimney—at about 5:50 p.m. Italian time, 11:50 a.m. on the East Coast of the U.S.—a cardinal announced to the throng gathered in St. Peter's Square that Ratzinger was the pick, and that he would take the papal name of Benedict XVI.
Ratzinger had been considered a strong but perhaps not strong enough candidate at the outset. He had made a high-profile push for declaring the previous pope, John Paul II, a saint in the days immediately following his April 2 death.
Something of a liberal at the beginning of his career, Ratzinger is generally considered to have been a driving force behind several of the Catholic Church's strictest and most social divisive moves in recent years. In particular, he has held the line on homosexuality, women's ordination, and the vein of progressive thinking known as liberation theology.
Going into the secret conclave, many observers wondered whether the cardinals would seek a kind of compromise figure, but that was not to be. Ratzinger secured the necessary two-thirds of the vote, from the 115 cardinals, in only the second ballot on the second day of voting.
Ratzinger, 78, made his first appearance shortly after the white smoke and ringing bells signaled his election. He gave his first blessing as pope to the cheering crowd. The new pope called himself "a simple, humble worker in the vineyard of the Lord" and said he was consoled that "the Lord can work and act even with insufficient means."

I Wonder if the New pope likes Rock & Roll? Will Bono from U2 Give him Guitar pick? 78 years old...I wonder if he's into crowd surfing?
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Tuesday April 19 2005
about last night...

Home team "Los Macho" vs Home team "Get in the Hole" the Home team Won....good game.. I bit Masha...she was yummy
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Monday April 18 2005 about last weekend Fri, Sat, Sun
"The differences between Insanity and genius is only measured by ones success"
Fri/Saturday 4 15/16 05
I will update on Monday. But in the mean time…
The thing about having a heart is, its exposed to everybody and everything around you so that makes it vulnerable, putting armor around your heart only makes you hard and pretending you don’t care about anything only means your scared.
The foundations you learn in pool always need to be practiced, no matter how good you get and what you know, foundation disappears in your advancement, advancement in this case is like building a tower made of knowledge, when you start to reach the clouds you tend to wobble and sway a little, that’s why you need to go back to the beginning and strengthen your foundation.
Sunday 4 17 05 12:00 pm
Last night was good as far as the music goes… NO MICHAEL JACKSON (beat it & thriller) and NO MODONNA (boarder line) was played at any time during my shift; thank the stars. Ron was not there last night; afterward George drove me home after the Bar with Sarafina; I like Serafina.
1:30pm News flash the Pope body still not rotten.
When I woke up this mourning I was in complete bewilderment as to why I would have a dream about playing pool with the pope.
It might have been the conversation I had last night with Eric about how the church will not embalm the body of our beloved Pope just to wait and see if he is a saint. That’s right; news flash the Pope is still not rotten corps yet. Yup that’s right there still body surfing his dead body around the Vatican and on top of that giant ass crowd loitering out side.
2:00 pm
If everything in life was a simple formula, then everybody would be doing it real easy, if it were that easy then how can any body direct there propensity toward there conscious or un conscious endeavor? Be-it-making an omelet, creating a new computer program or making the ball in the hole, how would it be any different from each other? If you had it all figured out (“life”) then why live? life with simple formulas? That’s insane if ya-ask me. Formulations work well; only, if we truly and honestly understood that’s life is not a formula.
Back Yard brunch, Happy 25th Birthday lance, silly Pool team stuff, A little Happy time A little sad time, a little oh well...



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Friday April 15 2005
About late last Night

This morning 9:00am ..... News flash!!! The Pope is still dead.
I came across an artical in the Voice a few days ago. Then this morning I found (what you see on the left) on the train seat next to me during my commute this morning. Compliments of the Ny post news, wich I cant stand.
As evidenced by the overwhelming response to his passing, the guy surely tapped into the hopes and dreams of loving throngs around the world, all fighting for hotel rooms in Rome. But as I've clicked the channels for days on end, I haven't heard a single person question the "man of the people" 's rabid anti-abortion stance, his aggressive anti-condom platform, or his intense demonization of gay marriage as "a new ideology of evil, perhaps insidious and hidden, which attempts to pit human rights against the family and against man." Of course maybe someone's death might not seem like the right time to say, "He furthered sexual guilt, disease spreading, and hate crimes," but actually, when there's exhaustive, weeks-long coverage of a man's life, what better time could there be? (At least a pundit on an ABC special did note that the pope may have disliked democracy as much as he hated Communism.)
The reality is that, as the world—and even the church—started inching forward and becoming more accepting, John Paul II tried to hold things together with a moral vise that often proved intolerant and unrealistic. As women gained more control over their bodies and gays developed some rights of their own, he was frantic to push down the progress by promoting absolute respect for human life, except for individualists and "deviants." This was no shock—religion has traditionally specialized in messages of love that double as tools of persecution, and fanatics have always picked sections of the Bible at random in order to oppress unpopular people, while ignoring other parts that might put a damper on their own fun.
Just recently, Christian, Jewish, and Muslim leaders all got together to denounce the upcoming Jerusalem WorldPride march and to agree on one thing—gays suck.
The protest was an eye-popping reminder that so many of the different gods people pray to seem to have the very same queers-are-the-devil message. Even these groups' usual distaste for each other was effectively buried as they united in fear of the common gay enemy. More?
Pope Springs Eternal—But Why?
Why one sinner can't cry for John.
by Michael Musto
Writin April 7th, 2005 5:27 PM


Thursday April 14 2005 about last night...
Tamara the terror rips me a new one

Tamara really really really really really reeeeeeeallyyy needs to be on my pool team...really

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Wednesday April 13 2005
About last Night and a little last Monday you can click images to make them bigger

Rachel Finally gets her Drag-on around the fish.

Stick it in got the Win but still we need more to make it again.

Dont be mad, be gald like Jess...Who always happy,

from her happy pills...

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Tuesday April 12 2005
Something cosmic is happing around the ranch…. it’s out of flux…its feminine and masculine…its young…its bold…. its silly…its loving…its old…. Its hopeful and its waiting. Its needs understanding. Its hard for me ya-know. I am a single person who pushing 50. No kids no love no attachments. My drive is with children and a wife. I put children first, then the wife who ever that may be. I don’t like to be made waiting, I like faithfulness but I am not faithful, I am free. Hippie child maybe, its all good, yesterday I was thinking, yesterday my thought were of my Perplexing little dark flower. She made me mad on the inside, love madness. It drove me foolish to think for a second of the stupidity and jealousy of her taste, which was not I. I am sushi, I am dark nuvo, I am the color green, and I am hot, wet and hard. Silly boy I am to think such things. I have this stirring feeling in my stomach when I think of what could have happen if I didn’t uproot my dark little flower. Sex is sometimes whimsical, and humiliating. Unless it’s not your drive. People are liars, people deny. People take what they want when they want it, but don’t know how to put it back. Some things are sacred to others. A smile can be deadly. A tear can lie. A word can be…a road… to within… that place with the walls you paint any shade you deem necessary.
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Tuesday April 12 2005
A little Vent...but its ok
Definitions of commitment on the Web:
* committedness: the trait of sincere and steadfast fixity of purpose; "a man of energy and commitment"
* the act of binding yourself (intellectually or emotionally) to a course of action; "his long commitment to public service"; "they felt no loyalty to a losing team"
* an engagement by contract involving financial obligation; "his business commitments took him to London"
* a message that makes a pledge
Setting the rules in opposition
Run the table but always do safeties. Do safeties but always try and run the table. Don’t try and run the table if you have a safety but always try and make all the balls. Woulda-coulda-shoulda Woulda-coulda-shoulda Woulda-coulda-shoulda. Mind you this is not my slogans of the games but this is what I am told during my matches from time to time while I’m shooting. Funny thing, the slogans and philosophy of some people. I know lots of great players but there communication about how they go about it stinks. I don’t like being judgmental but some times we need to know things for sure. My Monday team is stuck in the forth place score and yesterday we stood that way. Oh well, my Sunday team is in second place or third place and my Tuesday team has the same score as my Monday team. Its not a terrible season but it not the best ether, My Tuesday team is in the cities. We are all good but sometimes.....ya gets that way.
Something I wrote 6/15/04...... Flaky
I wish-so-so-sooo-wish I had it in me to say f@#$ every body around me and just leave. How does this feel I wonder? How does it feel to let others down around you? It really sucks when you are dependant on a flippin flakes… I mean if I had it in me to just drop all my efforts and hard work and just leave with no regard for the consequences involved and take no responsibility for my actions then would I be just like a regular guy? How does one become this? How does one turn into this? Are people born this way? Is this a genetic issue with some? This spoiled brat behavior is like a cancer for the character. I wish I were like this so then maybe I wouldn't have this looser feeling inside me when one does this to my team. Its all about you and what I want to do flip all the other who are dependant on you, it’s a beautiful day today and I want to go and play who cares about the others needing you there. Its amazing this let down thing. Its like your standing on a tiny little planet underneath your feet and its rotating opposite of the bigger world...
Samuria a Warrior
Good Luck

Its time to ask my self...How bad do I really want it?

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Monday April 11 2005 About Fri Sat Sun
Stuff I did this weekend


Happy Birthday Patrick

Played a little pool before the Patrick party then it was off to bar Michael Jackson

Real board on Fri night, watching drunken people is not fun anymore and listening to Ron play the same 17 songs, ( three of them being Michael Jackson and the three Modona ) all night long gets real sickening, Got real sick on Sat night , think it was food poisoning, And we won on Sunday 4 of 5….

Its Lindsay

Is way cool

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Friday April 8 2005
This is the kind of stuff I have to put up with late morning late afternoon and late evening almost everyday... My life is terrible....
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Thursday April 7 2005
Helter Heathers
I love my dead rock Pope…
Why in-the-freaking-cake-hole is the news media showing this poor guys dead body all over the place? They’re moving him here, there moving there; up the steps down the steps down the hall in this room now that room on the roof in the back yard, take a picture with the dead pope. Is he going to be on Jay Leno Next? Are they going to body surf him at the next Ozz fest? Perhaps tigh a bungee cord to his ankle and drop him from a hot air balloon? I know, he is the Pope, he represents the Catholic peeps all over the planet, I mean, he was so popular this dude even hung out with Bono from U2 now and then. But he’s dead now, and he’s the pope and I loved him, and he liked Rock; “ I love my dead rock pope,” let him rest in peace and play golf with God now please. But the media, Oyvey!!! They’re displaying, moving and handling his body on the news and in the papers like he’s an ornament or something, geez!!!
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Wed April 6 2005
From the pages of Oh ye old table of better days. I will Mourn you.


Wed April 6 2005
About last night

House of Glass…
“ I had ya-guy but I lost it, I was in the comfort zone all I needed was one more game, nice come back.”
The Comfort zone is a dangerous place; the comfort zone is like a house of glass. I know what this comfort zone is. I have been there, the comfort zone-thingy, and I sleep in it soundly thinking the walls are made of brick, then something happens, some kid in a near by lot knocks a baseball through the window and insted of just the window shattering the whole house shatters. The comfort zone is a detrimental place to be when you are playing a game with balls made of something-seamingly almost hard as marble. The closer you are to the win the heavier the balls gets, the more clouded you vision becomes, the faster your heart beats, the quicker you breathing. Like Cherokees hiding in a bush, these are the things waiting for you in the comfort zone. My opponent played well but the dam beach ball sized cue ball screwed up his whole program. He had me three nothing and needed one more. I slowly came back with a glasscutter for an auspicious win.

Ebens team is smooth like lotion

It sets the eight ball up for Jason

See The Music Video


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Tuesday April 5 2005 About Sat, Sun, Mon...
Stuff I did in the last three days
Masha.G, got the talent....and the HmMmmMmm...ipod
MMMmmMMmOnDaYeeEEee....Get in the Hole Won 3 of 5.....We are Good...

The team is GooOOoooDDd

It's funny how we have been winning all season and we are still not placed..It week 12 and we lost maybe three times

On Sunday after we Won our Match we went to the Movies

Last Saturday Night it was Happy Birthday SARA!!!!

Later that evening


When the Party was Over

Real Happy Jen And Val were real happy I left and didnt clean anything up....

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Monday April 4 2005
Well I got to see it

My review "SIN CITY"
Frank Miller has always been somewhat of an influence since I was a kid. There has always been a truth behind his dialog and words in his books. I grew up kinda-gritty but I always had somewhat of a safety net, or at least I thought I did. My grand mother always looked out for me no matter what kind of shit I was in. I think this is the reason why I was so brave and stupid at the same time, I think. Hookers, Thugs, robber, killers, shooters, players, good guys bad guys and guys in the middle were the kind of company I hung around with in my teen and twenty years. It got tiresome living this way after awhile and because of my grandmother I got out of it pretty simple, just leave the town, hop on a train or plain and move on. If it follows you get the bug spray. Frank Miller, I wonder, did he grow up like his writing? Or was he an outsider watching from within like I did. That dude sure is gritty on the inside.



United States, 2005
U.S. Release Date: 4/1/05 (wide)
Running Length: 2:03
MPAA Classification: R (Violence, nudity, sexual situations, profanity)
Theatrical Aspect Ratio: 2.35:1
Cast: Bruce Willis, Mickey Rourke, Clive Owen, Jessica Alba, William Fuentes, Rosario Dawson, Jamie King, Brittany Murphy, Benicio Del Toro, Nick Stahl, Elijah Wood, Michael Clarke Duncan
Directors: Robert Rodriguez, Frank Miller, Quentin Tarantino ("special guest director")
Producers: Elizabeth Avellan, Frank Miller, Robert Rodriguez
Screenplay: Frank Miller & Robert Rodriguez
Cinematography: Robert Rodriguez
Music: Robert Rodriguez, John Debney, Graeme Revell
U.S. Distributor: Dimension Films


Saturday/Sunday April 2-3 2005
It rains

Saturday 4:00pm: I will update shortly with oddles and oddles of pics of my daily life, WeeEEeeEEeEe isnt that fun? In the mean time its raining, its pouring, my love life is storing all kinds of drama like okanawa in the showa....I still didnt get to see Sin City yet...

Sunday 1:30pm: Watching the Movie 3 O Clock High...One of the best Retro 80s Camp high school flicks to watch....Now off to my match...later

Ps: I miss Sam...

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Friday Night / April 1 2005
My Buddie Randy Rocks

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Friday April 1 2005 About three or seven days ago..I Think I cant tell any more...
Stuff I did

Practice makes ya Good, AJ hurts Ronnie.... again.... and Douglas talks to the inanimate....

The days go bye and my mind is drawing a I stare at the skinny dummies.

I eat...I drink...I read...I play pool.... Douglas throws a tomato at me...
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Friday April 1 2005
April Fools day...who gives a shit

1:30pm... Today I will make efforts to see Alba...err I mean Sin City. Frank Miller has been a big Influence in my person place and views of life.... yup that’s right...A comic book dude some of you would say he is, others call him a great writer, I have a different perspective on my view of his presence, I will keep it too myself...His art work is phat-2.

4:50pm... Man!!! they already have the movie boot legged on the street!!!!

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Thursday March 30th About last Friday nights I think....Trying to catch up
Jays - Mend Movie-"Thats a rap" party

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