Go
to May 2005. Good bye chunks of April Good bye a very foolish
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| Friday April
29 2005 |
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is bothering me.... a lot...
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Tuff
act to follow…
I woke up to this news on Ten Ten wins. It jared me right out of my sleep.
I won’t say why because you will never be believe me… Tom is the
man though; I admired Tom since the Outsiders. I grew up watching Tom on the
big screen, Katie, on the other hand, I wont say a thing and please dont ask
me via email or in person because I wont answer. Tom is wealthy and handsome
and famous. I on the other hand and not any of those things. More power-to-ya-Tom.
When your slow, you blow. |
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Toby
is the cutest little bunny on the planet. Unfortunately,
he will DIE on June 30th, 2005 if you don.t help. I rescued
him several months ago. I found him under my porch, soaking
wet, injured from what appeared to be an attack from an alley
cat. I took him in, thinking he had no chance to live from
his injuries, but miraculously, he recovered. I have since
spent several months nursing him to health. Toby is a fighter,
that.s for sure.
Unfortunately, on June 30th, 2005, Toby will die.
I am going to eat him. I am going to take Toby to a butcher to have
him slaughter this cute bunny. I will then prepare Toby for
a midsummer feast. I have several recipes under consideration,
which can be seen, with some pretty graphic images, under
the recipe section.
I don’t want to eat Toby, he is my friend, and he has
always been the most loving, adorable pet. However, God as
my witness, I will devour this little guy unless
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Here is the current status of donations for Toby, as of April
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On this note |
I will update next Monday have a nice
weekend |
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| Thursday April
28 2005 |
About
Stick it in last Tuesday night...
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Superman
and his side kick Pinky
watch Frankenjulie
shoot the balls through the holes
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my N- hood buddy and morning train companion
Lielana closes her eyes under the-o-so popular yet
getting
a rep for being stolen a lot iPod. I known her since
she was 11 years old. Now she's 23, and not looking
so 11 years old anymore...Hmmmm? What are they feeding
these kids now a days.... |
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| Wednesday April
27 2005 |
Choice.
Red Pill Blue Pill Red Dice blue Dice
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 Definitions
of Choice
* the person or thing chosen or selected; "he
was my pick for pool player level 5"
* the act of choosing or selecting; "your choice of colors was unfortunate"; "you
can take your pick"
* of superior grade; "choice wines"; "prime beef"; "prize
carnations"; "quality paper"; "select peaches"
* appealing to refined taste; "choice wine"
* option: one of a number of things from which only one can be chosen; "what
option did I have?"; "there no other alternative"; "my
only choice is to refuse"
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 Definitions of Faith
* belief: a strong belief in a supernatural power or powers that control
human destiny; "he lost his faith but not his morality"
* complete confidence in a person or plan etc; "he cherished the faith of
a good woman"; "the doctor-patient relationship is based on trust"
* religion: institution to express belief in a divine power; "he was raised
in the Baptist religion"; "a member of his own faith contradicted
him"
* loyalty or allegiance to a cause or a person; "keep the faith"; "they
broke faith with their investors"
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Definitions of Karma
* Divine doctrine that each rebirth in the cycle of lives is based on the sum
of the merit accumulated by an individual during his previous lives. Karma establishes
the general tendency of a life but does not determine specific actions. In each
life, the interaction between individual character and previously established
karma forms the karma of succeeding lives.
*The law of cause and effect ("a deed, an action, cause-and-effect, fate")
the balance of all of one's actions throughout all of one's incarnations, which
thus determines one's future experiences; thus loosely, fate or destiny as a
result of one's actions; should not be seen as any doctrine of sin and punishment,
but as the working of the Law of Cause and Effect, or "what ye sow,
so shall ye reap"
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Definitions of Trust
* have confidence or faith in; "We can trust in God"; "Rely on
your friends"; "bank on your good education"; "I swear
by my grandmother's recipes"
* something (as property) held by one party (the trustee) for the benefit
of another (the beneficiary); "he is the beneficiary of a generous trust
set up by his father"
* reliance: certainty based on past experience; "he wrote the paper with
considerable reliance on the work of other scientists"; "he put
more trust in his own two legs than in the gun"
* allow without fear
* believe: be confident about something; "I believe that he will come
back from the war"
* the trait of trusting; of believing in the honesty and reliability of others; "the
experience destroyed his trust and personal dignity"
* a consortium of independent organizations formed to limit competition by
controlling the production and distribution of a product or service; "they
set up the trust in the hope of gaining a monopoly"
* hope: expect and wish; "I trust you will behave better from now on"; "I
hope she understands that she cannot expect a raise"
* faith: complete confidence in a person or plan etc; "he cherished the
faith of a good woman"; "the doctor-patient relationship is based
on trust"
* entrust: confer a trust upon; "The messenger was entrusted with the general's
secret"; "I commit my soul to God"
* extend credit to
* confidence: a trustful relationship; "he took me into his confidence"; "he
betrayed their trust"
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 Karma
and Murphy’s Law have one thing in common.
Both of these providence’s are not logical. Best guess, Faith, Luck,
Chance or roll of the dice disobeys logic. When you choose to live in a particular
manner,
or make the ball in the hole in a certain way, (past present and-or future)
I think it is or was or will be a choice based ill logic; or how your brought
up
or influenced during those clean blue print or blank canvas years of your
life; child hood. Choice stems from faith, “stems” not is. Choice,
Faith, Chance, Dice-roll-however you want to call illogic all fall in a category
that is
pro right-side of the
brain; this is logical thinking. If you don’t believe in faith or have
trust in your on natural ability then how can you know if it is the right
choice? With a Win? Or a loss? Sometimes when you win you loose. To choose
or “roll
the dice” is not logical. Blue pill or red pill? Best guess? Or Logical
choice? I like the green pill. The green pill is immediate. It is Reasonable
to incorporate faith or “rolling the dice” for choosing the most
logical way to make the ball in the hole. Can choice be a sum from and equation?
Equations are universal; people drama, mathematical, left brain right brain
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The
religion of William
William's Eight (so far) deadly Sins of pool
But
arent these all the things that make it great?
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1. Arrogance:
overbearing pride evidenced by a superior manner
toward inferiors
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2. Selfishness:
stinginess resulting from a concern for your
own welfare and a disregard of others.
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3. Fear:
The point at which the mind stops denying reality.
The emotion of the ego, contrasted with love,
the emotion given us by the all mighty; originates
in the expected punishment for our seven deadly
acts, which our guilt demands; the resulting
terror over what we believe we deserve leads
us -- through the dynamics of denial and projection
-- to defend ourselves by attacking others,
which merely reinforces our sense of vulnerability
and fear, establishing a xxxxxious circle of
fear and defense.
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4. Anger:
a strong emotion; a feeling that is oriented
toward some real or supposed grievance
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5. Cheater:
someone who leads you to believe something
that is not true.
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6. Lying:
the deliberate act of deviating from the truth.
A false statement (in an academic matter) made
with the conscious intent to mislead others.
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7. Denial:
Inability to acknowledge something apparent
to others. It can be an involuntary coping
strategy. a process of automatically blocking
out awareness of painful realities, thoughts,
or feelings in order to protect oneself from
emotional distress
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8. Opinionated:
obstinate in your opinions.
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| Tuesday April
26 2005 about last Monday night |
Jay
tells me let it go William, let it go.
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You never really waist your time unless you
learn something from it.
Then again what do you learn? That all depends. Is it something
you learned before and just for got? Or ignored… Are you
consistent with repeating the same mistake over and over? Yesterday
my heart broke, again, but this time it seemed not quit as hard
as the first time. Like more diluted or something, I almost cried,
almost but not quiet. After an hour or so I just dealt with it,
I have done it before. It makes me sad though, I almost felt like
I wasted my time but I didn’t, it all depend on how I choose
to look at it. I did think about my best friend whom I lost a while
ago, my heart was racing through out my entire match. I won it
though but I still felt like I lost. But I didn’t really,
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Sometimes
I can be a little Thug
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Image
by James Boyaca: Thug
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| Monday April
20 2005 |
About
last Sunday Night
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No
excuse for me...
If
there was any table that " i " will
remember never to play on again.. it will be Blue Room.
Nice bar
great Hot Wings (Atomic,) But The balls are not to
my practice or likeing. The center of the Balls don't
meet with the edge of the
rail bumpers of the table. That means The balls are
25% smaller and heaver than your average Bar cue ball.
Some
people can rock out on tables like this but other like
my self need
a
little
adjusting. But for some people like myself bye the time
you adjust it dosent matter anymore...
Anway
we did ok...
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Spencer
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Sunday
at Blue Room... or Atomic Wings |
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Breath
Sometimes when I am shooting a big Star Bucks Nine ball Extravaganza with Douglas,
towards the end of the match sometimes it ends up with me missing the critical
ball and Douglas getting it in the hole, but afterwards when we go to shake
hands, I noticed him and myself a little out of breath. Why? Breathing is factor
in your game, it a universal rhythm of things.
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The Inner game of Tennis
By Timothy Gallwey
Saturday 9:30 pm on the way to the doorframe.
Here is a piece of a book I read today that I have slightly changed a bit,
by adding in bold text the word “pool” I like to compare the same principle
of “the inner game” Timothy Gallwey is using for tennis.
Tim
Gallwey
Tim Gallwey attended Harvard University where he majored in English
Literature and captained the tennis team. He served as an officer
in the US Navy and was one of the founders of a liberal arts college
in the Midwest. Starting in the mid 1970's Tim Gallwey produced
a series of best selling books, which set forth a new methodology
for the development of personal and professional excellence in
a variety of fields.
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For
the last twenty years Gallwey has been introducing
the Inner Game approach to corporations looking
for better ways to manage change. Through lectures,
consulting, and seminars, his focus has been
directed at three targets, 1) helping all individuals
in a company learn how to learn, and think for
themselves, 2) helping managers learn how to
coach, 3) helping leaders learn to create "learning
organizations." His long-term clients have
included AT&T, IBM, Arco, Anheuser Busch,
Apple Computer, and The Coca-Cola Company. His
newest professional interest is helping people
who work in teams to learn how to work together
more effectively.
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From Pg 123, 124
Just as the breath has a twofold rhythm which echoes the
ebb and flow of the tides, the rising and setting of the
sun, the up and the down, the in and the
out, the potential and the actual, the masculine and the feminine, so too
do most of the strokes in (pool) or tennis repeat the rhythm.
Ground strokes have
a back and forth, a feminine and a masculine component. With a backswing
there is no follow-through without a follow-through, the
back swing is of no use.
There is practical application of this notion. One-way to achieve a natural
rhythm in your ground strokes or (pool strokes) is to allow your swing to
(almost) coincide
with your breathing. Inhale with your backswing and exhale with your follow
through.
Match your stroke with your breathing not your breathing with your strokes.
You will find that in a short period any jerkiness and irregularity of rhythm
will
begin to fall away.
I don’t recommend this practice during a match, for the obvious reason
that it is difficult to regulate your breath to the irregularities of the
point, but if you practice matching strokes with breath in practice, the
basic rhythm
will become a part of your game.
The Inner Game Of Tennis, 1974 version ISBN 0-553-27372-8
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Sun 12:55am
On the way home, I left the doorframe early today. Its raining outside
and my stomach hurts. I can’t hold down food for some reason. From
the short time I was there at the E-bar I was reminded of a few things.
Miniature natives
always
need to feel hegemony to compensate for lack of charisma, no matter what.
Keep your ideas on how to run three balls on a pool table to yourself,
James is
real annoying.
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2:45pm
I went to Hugo Boss with a friend of mine yesterday; she was a outlandish
to shop with. She waned me to buy up the whole store. I told her I was better
off
buying
Hugo
Boss stock shares instead of the shit she was picking. I like Hugo Boss clothing;
I wish I had the means to buy the things I wanted. Afterward I went to my
pool match and played on a table were the center of the balls was lower then
the edge
of the bumpers, the balls were also real heavy. Jay shot the best on the
table out of the whole team, my team is good but I new something was going
to go a
miss with this kind of table.
Jay
goes downs on the Chicken but comes up in his Game....MVP here
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| Thursday April
21 2005 |
2
out of 8 people begin with the letter"
i " here at
the APA
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 i-Game
I have come across this so many times in my almost 4 years on the
APA already and it always ends up being the same thing
over and over again. All I can do is laugh ....
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Is that team winning? Good take me or “ i ” with
you…what do mean
theirs no “ i ” in
team? Yeah but there’s “me” in
team, If “ i ” join
a team then that team better win around me or “ i ” am
going to take my “ i ”-game” to
another team. Because a team that’s winning should take me
with them. You mean this team
is in the finals already? But can “ i ” be an “ i ” on
this team? “ i ” want
to be on another team so “ i ” can
be the reason why we won. Can’t “ i ” just
do what “ i ” want?
If “ i ” want
to join a different team every season then why cant “ i ”?
So what the team needs me to win as team, its about what “ i ” want,
who cares about team cohesion along with eight people functioning
as one
to get the win that can only be done as a team. This other team
looks like fun and “ i ” want
to be on it. So what “ i ” have
done this 8 or 9 times already in less than 3 years and “ i ” might
get a rep as a flake team player on the APA like some already have,
its all about me, and what “ i ” want
and how “ i ” want
it, I just want to win, oh…wait a minute…I’m
already on a team that’s a few games away from the goal.
Ahhh. Who cares, “ i ” just
want to win with a team “ i ” like
not with a team “ i ” don’t
want to be with anymore. Its all about me, and not about what team
is, even though “ i ” want
to be on a team that wants to have team players who function as
a team and not as someone who is on a team
that’s not the team.
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Things like this never end good its a good thing “ i ” don’t
abandon ship when the going gets not going my way.
- ps: “ in” the
word team you can also spell: meat,
met, tea, mea, mate, tame, tam-tam, and a few more words that
mean something.
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20 2005 |
!!!!!!!
JULIE !!!!!!!
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Come
and play Julie some 8 ball
and watch her make giant shots
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| Wednesday April
20 2005 |
Too
bad for some, but not for me....
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Talk
smack ...
(v) To talk trash, insulting or casting doubt on a person's
ability.
Before the fight, the boxers were talking smack to each other.
Source: keyshaw, Jun 24, 2004 http://www.urbandictionary.com/author.php?author=keyshaw
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Talk shit ...
1. To say something uncalled-for or rude
2. To say something for the purpose of instigating a strong
(possibly negative) reaction
3. To speak lies behind a person's back
4. To make empty threats
1. "Damn your mom was good in bed last night"
2. "You're ex-boyfriend told me that his vacuum cleaner
can give better head."
3. "She sucks all her boyfriend's friend's dicks!"
4. "I'm gonna break your kneecaps open and make you
drink the fluid"
Source: Lila & Set, Dec 29, 2003
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So I sent my definition to urbandictionary.com. It should
be up shortly
Loud mouth ...
1.Dont know when to shut the fuck up.
2.Talks before thinking about what they are saying or why
they are saying it without consideration for consequences.
3. Big mouth, loud mouth.
4. Diarrhea of the mouth.
5. Talk the talk but too scared to walk the walk.
6.Someone who says they are great at playing pool until they
get on the pool table and then cant make a ball in the hole;
and have nothing but excuses afterward.
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Potty mouth stinks ...
Especially for your game (pool.) Some people think its fun
to upset the feelings of there opponent after they win their
game; they seem to feel good about this on the surface. They
feel above there opponent. Superior. On top. They feel good
about gloating.
To gloat: malicious satisfaction. Now, some times some people
gloat because of there own insecure reasons; these reasons
vary from person to person. Some people like to goade you
into talking smack, He will do this goading by lying about
you to your face, putting words in your mouth in front of
others, making things up about you, pretending to play dumb
after they do something nasty to you or say subtle nasty
passive aggressive comments about you, or just beat his own
drum load enough to water down your 15 minutes. When you
react to this, this gives the geode’r comfort. The
comfort is the “defending himself thing” against
you, getting you angry, pushing your buttons and getting
under your skin, this is his security blanket, his safety
net for the thing inside of him that caused him to have potty
mouth to begin with. Someone yelling and screaming or making
loud excuses when they loose there match inadvertently makes
their opponent look better, appear mature, look professional.
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Don’t goad me to talk shit please, because
sadly not nuch will be said from me but mostly just you
listening to the sound of your own
big mouth...
The games people play sometimes extend way out side the table
regardless of the fact that you are only appearing to be
playing on the table with one other person. Sometimes the
game begins after the match is over.
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Team Stick it In got two of five yesterday ... That's
ok ... We are good anyway ...
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A tiny bit of Monday
but a little more of Tuesday Night
The
season is coming to a close.
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| Tuesday April
19 2005 |
The
new 78!!! years Old Pope is the new hope
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 Cardinals
Sing a Tough Tune
Ratzinger—now Pope Benedict XVI—a true hardliner
by Rema Rahman
April 19th, 2005 1:39 PM
Hardline
Catholics got their man Tuesday, when the College
of Cardinals elected its dean,
Cardinal Joseph Ratzinger, as the 265th pope.
Soon after the white smoke appeared from a Sistine
Chapel chimney—at about 5:50 p.m. Italian time, 11:50 a.m.
on the East Coast of the U.S.—a cardinal announced
to the throng gathered in St. Peter's Square that Ratzinger
was the pick, and that he would take the papal name of
Benedict XVI.
Ratzinger had been considered a strong but perhaps
not strong enough candidate at the outset. He had made
a high-profile
push for declaring the previous pope, John Paul II,
a saint in the days immediately following his April
2 death.
Something of a liberal at the beginning of his career,
Ratzinger is generally considered to have been a driving
force behind
several of the Catholic Church's strictest and most
social divisive moves in recent years. In particular,
he has held
the line on homosexuality, women's ordination, and
the vein of progressive thinking known as liberation
theology.
Going into the secret conclave, many observers wondered
whether the cardinals would seek a kind of compromise
figure, but
that was not to be. Ratzinger secured the necessary
two-thirds of the vote, from the 115 cardinals, in
only the second ballot
on the second day of voting.
 Ratzinger, 78, made his first appearance shortly after
the white smoke and ringing bells signaled his election.
He gave
his first blessing as pope to the cheering crowd. The
new pope called himself "a simple, humble worker in the
vineyard of the Lord" and said he was consoled that "the
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I
Wonder if the New pope likes Rock & Roll? Will Bono from U2
Give him Guitar pick? 78 years old...I wonder if he's into
crowd surfing? |
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| Tuesday April
19 2005 |
about
last night...
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April 18 2005 about last weekend Fri,
Sat, Sun |
"The
differences between Insanity and genius is only measured
by ones success"
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Fri/Saturday
4 15/16 05
I will update on Monday. But in the mean time…
The thing about having a heart is, its exposed to everybody
and everything around you so that makes it vulnerable,
putting armor around your heart only makes you hard and
pretending you don’t care about anything only means
your scared.
The foundations you learn in pool always need to be practiced,
no matter how good you get and what you know, foundation
disappears in your advancement, advancement in this case
is like building a tower made of knowledge, when you
start to reach the clouds you tend to wobble and sway
a little, that’s why you need to go back to the
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Sunday 4 17 05 12:00 pm
Last night was good as far as the music goes… NO MICHAEL
JACKSON (beat it & thriller) and NO MODONNA (boarder
line) was played at any time during my shift; thank the stars.
Ron was not there last night; afterward George drove me home
after the Bar with Sarafina; I like Serafina.
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 1:30pm News flash the Pope body still not rotten.
When I woke up this mourning I was in complete bewilderment
as to why I would have a dream about playing pool with the
pope.
It might have been the conversation I had last night with
Eric about how the church will not embalm the body of our
beloved Pope just to wait and see if he is a saint. That’s
right; news flash the Pope is still not rotten corps yet.
Yup that’s right there still body surfing his dead
body around the Vatican and on top of that giant ass crowd
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If everything in life was a simple formula, then everybody
would be doing it real easy, if it were that easy then
how can any body direct there propensity toward
there conscious or un conscious endeavor? Be-it-making
an omelet, creating a new computer program or making the
ball in the hole, how would it be any different from each
other? If you had it all figured out (“life”)
then why live? life with simple formulas? That’s
insane if ya-ask me. Formulations work well; only, if we
truly and honestly understood that’s life is not
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Back Yard brunch, Happy 25th Birthday lance, silly Pool
team stuff, A little Happy time A little sad time, a little
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